If I fall
If I tear down the walls
If I let someone into the gigantic mess that I am
If I fall heart first
Ignoring my head
The outcomes never end how I want
If I I get one more
" this won't work"
" your too much"
Or anything resembling a break up
I won't make it
It'll be the final blow
The critical hit
The things that will shatter me
I won't make it out alive
To let someone in again
And be too much in some areas and not enough in others
Never able to fulfill the other person's wants
Never able to be enough
I will not survive
The last stitch will unravel
What some call
'Commitment issues'
I call self preservation
Because I can only give so much until I no longer exists
I yearn for the
" I love you's "
" I will always be here for you"
" I understand "
But am too fragile for the inevitable breakup
