It's all in my head
The memories
The love
The happiness
And that is where they have to stay
Because I can't go on with you
But it hurts too much to go on without you
To think everything was real
To think I fell over false promises
To think the only person I can blame is myself
Because that is the problem I wasn't thinking
I didn't want to see past the fluffy words
I didn't want to ponder too deep into the actions you had
I didn't want to believe the foundation was built on sand
And washed away by my tears
My hopes
My wanting
It's a strange feeling
Loving someone who never truly loved you
To have to overcome the feelings and anger for them
To care about them but in every action you have to take a step back
To have to close off a part of you heart that will always belong to them
But
You see them
You watch them grow
And you praise them
And learn that sometimes things don't work out
Sometimes people are complicated
Sometimes
Friends are more intimate
More true
More
Just
More
