I thought I knew what love was
You see I'd been told it
I've said it myself
But it always seemed to be that I loved too much
More than those who claimed to love me
I would erase their flaws
Become a world class attorney
Ease their very soul
But never felt that same amount of love directed towards me
Until
Until you came crashing into my life
All smiles
Laughs
Joy
I was attracted to your light
Your brilliance
As if I was moth
Dull and drawn to things bigger and brighter than me
The more we talked
The more I fell
The closer I got
The safer I felt
I showed parts of myself I deemed
Unworthy
Ugly
Defective
And the only words you said were
"I love every part of you"
There was no recoil
There was nothing but grace
So I kept coming back
Knowing I didn't deserve you
Knowing I could never repay all the kindness and love you've given me
Knowing I couldn't be all that you could want
Addicted
To you
To how you make me feel
To how I feel
Now I don't think I can survive being without you
It'd be a fall from grace
A fall that would shatter the rest of me
I'm terrified
Scared outta my mind
But
I love you
And I'm starting to believe you love me
Not like the others
You love like me
You love in big
All encompassing ways
Love that seems to slowly erode the uncertainty that surrounds my heart
Words that slowly start to heal
I never thought myself lovable
Until you
Now I think
I might
Possibly
Be able to accept the love you offer
