Push and pull
At first it was small
Just banter
And
Bickering
Which turned into
Flirting
And
Seeing who'd break first
Who'd turn who into a giggling mess
Push and pull
Showing her a little bit of my messed-up soul
Then see how she responds to it
But then
She would take it
And
Comfort me
Just like that
She would call me things like
Beautiful
Perfectly imperfect
So I'd pull away
Because I didn't know what else to do
Push and Pull
She showed me her love
Her unconditional love
Unconditional
I haven't seen that before
I didn't know what to do with that
I would push away
Because I don't deserve love
I could live a thousand life times and NEVER
Deserve unconditional love
Push and pull
People say things
Make promises that I'm convinced are empty
So I push them to the limit
See if what people say
Is what they mean
But
Sometimes
I take it too far
And end up pushing people to their limit
Not their promise
Guess that's what happened with her
Push and pull
I lost my pull
My direction
My.
I guess that's selfish of me to say
But
It's true
She was my steady foundation
My constant
My.
Guess it doesn't matter anymore
Push
That's all I know how to do
And without someone to pull
I push away
Rationality
Emotions
Happiness
Who knows when it'll end
Pull
I hope she found someone that
Pulls her in
Holds her tight
And gets to say all the things I kept in my
Head
And
heart
Push and pull
