Random Imagines (GxG)

You're okay| Vada Cavell

Trigger warning: mentions of suicide

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It had been a tough few months for Vada. Ever since that shooting at school, her mental health has been spiralling and she was losing control of herself.

She took part in various recreational drugs and alcohol but it only seemed to help her forget for a very short period of time.

She tried everything to cope with what happened and nothing worked. She was tired of these thoughts she had, of the memories that replayed in her mind and the nightmares that wouldn't seem to stop.

She couldn't cope with her life. Her grades were worse than ever and she had no hope left. She wanted it all to go away.

It was finally summertime and she was already dreading going back to school, not that summer would be much better with her barely hanging on at this point.

That's how she got to this point a few weeks later, standing on the golden gate bridge staring off into the distance and contemplating her life.

She wanted so badly for the pain to stop, but she didn't know if she could bring herself to jump. People passed by occasionally as she stood there for about 15 minutes.

Once Vada got the confidence, she climbed onto the railing, sitting on it as her legs dangled over the ocean.

She had very mixed feelings, she stared down below her, did she really want to do this she thought to herself. Maybe she just wanted someone to ask if she's okay and tell her not to do it, that there's more to life that she has yet to experience.

Instead, everyone who passed by ignored her, didn't acknowledge her presence, didn't care.

Vada took a deep breath and exhaled before she stepped down from the railing onto the little ledge below her.

She faced the water as she held onto the rail. The sun was just starting to set and she wanted to see it for one last time.

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You always liked to go over the bridge as you went for your walks, especially when the sun was rising or setting. It was calming. It was familiar and it made you feel at peace with yourself.

There weren't too many people around at this time as you walked the bridge. Your heart skipped a beat as you saw a girl around your age, standing on the other side of the railing.

All you could think is that you can't let her make that mistake. You need to help her. It was a good sign that she was just standing there. It means she's not sure. She might just hope that somebody will tell her not to do it.

You approached her calmly, not wanting to freak her out by coming in too quickly. It's not what she needs. She needs clarity.

You stop as you get to her and look ahead at the sky and the ocean beneath it. "It's not worth it," you tell her softly as you continue to look ahead as you lean your arms on the railing.

"Excuse me?" Vada questions a little irritated at your sudden appearance, not bothering to even look at you. "It's not worth it," you repeat. "I get it, you're in pain, but if you do this, you are giving up so much more. It's not worth giving all of that up just to stop whatever is causing you pain." You tell her.

"You don't know shit, you don't know what I'm going through, you don't know what it's like," Vada snarls as she looks down at the water.

"I get it, you're angry, angry at the world, maybe angry at yourself. You're probably angry at me, but I just want to help. Just listen, okay?" You tell her softly as she huffs, not saying anything.

"I am speaking from experience when I say that." You see her body stiffen as you talk. "I know better than probably anyone else on this bridge what it's like, I was in your position just 2 years ago, except nobody stopped to help me. Nobody stopped me."

"The second my hand left that railing, instant regret washed over me." You saw a tear roll down her cheek as you told her your story. You moved closer to her and your perfume filled her nose.

"I was lucky, I survived. And honestly, it's a miracle I did. For the few seconds that I fell, all I could think about was all the things I never got to do, the people I'm leaving behind. I came out of it with a spinal injury, which paralyzed my legs. My doctors didn't think I would ever walk again, but I beat the odds. I got a second chance at a normal life and I want to do something meaningful, I want to help people."

"I'm sorry," she whispers as you finish telling her your story. You have come to peace with what you did. You didn't particularly like talking about it, but you shared it with her, hoping it would help.

"I just don't know what to do, I tried everything and nothing helps. Nothing makes it go away." Vada cries as she grips the railing.

"I can't promise you that it will go away, but with time it gets better, don't let it control you, don't let it take away your life," you say soothingly.

She nods slightly as she decides not to do it. It would be a big mistake and she always knew that, but she didn't care until she heard your story, she wanted to stay strong for her family and friends but it's just so hard.

Vada begins turning around to climb back over the railing, but she loses her footing. Luckily you were holding onto her shirt and helped her stay on the bridge as her heart jumped in her chest at the sudden momentum as fear overtook her body.

She climbs over with your help and falls into your arms as you hold her tightly. "Thank you. Thank you." She keeps mumbling under her breath as she holds onto you tightly.

"I got you, it's okay. You're okay." You whisper in her ear when she cries in your arms as you rub circles on her back to soothe her.

You rolled your eyes at the people walking by that stared at you. If they weren't going to help someone in need, they could at least mind their business when someone else does.