Random Imagines (GxG)

New Beginning or the End|Hailee Steinfeld|Part 2*

Requested.

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Hailees POV:

I pushed past the dressing room door frantic. I couldn't breathe and the feeling of needing to throw up invaded my body, but it wasn't happening.

I stumbled into the room, grasping on to anything I could as I lost my balance, the door slamming loudly behind me.

I heaved, trying to take in air as my chest constricted. This could not be happening. It can't be real. This can't be real.

I lowered myself to the ground as I felt my body going numb, my eyesight blurry with the tears flowing freely.

I felt so many emotions all at once that I felt like I was going to explode. Not that I would mind, I can't even stand the thought of having to face anyone ever again.

The fear, the anger, the utter embarrassment.

This wasn't fair. It isn't fair.

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"I think that's the one. It's perfect." Hailee said with a smile as they finished looking at all the venue options with Cindy over the last few days.

They had gone back to Hailees' house to go back over all the options, listing out the pros and cons for each venue.

Cindy smiled as she watched Hailee excitedly listing off all the reasons for why that venue was the perfect one.

"I think you're perfect." Cindy said, not thinking before she spoke. Hailees eyes widened, "what?" She asked in disbelief.

"You heard me." Cindy said with a smirk. She wasn't going to take it back now that she said it.

"Why would you say that? You can't say things like that with our history." Hailee scolded.

"It's the truth." Cindy said with a shrug. Hailee didn't like how it made her feel. She always loved the way Cindy said whatever was on her mind, but it wasn't what she needed or wanted to hear.

She was planning to get married while her first love was telling her that she's perfect. She brushed it off and continued discussing the plans for the wedding.

Cindy kept flirting subtly and Hailee tried to ignore it. She did well for about an hour that they spoke, but her resolve snapped minutes before Cindy was supposed to leave and Hailee pulled her in, smashing their lips together.

"Fuck. I shouldn't have done that." Hailee said frantic as she pushed Cindy away moments later. "What is wrong with me?" She whispered to herself.

"Please go." She told Cindy, screwing her eyes shut in frustration. Cindy shrugged and left, not really bothered by the situation.

If it hadn't been for that first time she lost her control, none of this would have happened. If only she hadn't continued working with Cindy when she realised who she was. Just mistake after mistake.
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"Hailee come on, Hailee!" I heard the muffled voice growing more worried by the second. She shook my shoulders and my eyes finally fixed on her.

I was stuck in my thoughts, staring blankly at the wall when Cindy came in. I was so deep in my memory that I didn't even register her presence until she started raising her voice and shaking me to bring me back to reality.

I stared at her blankly, my tear stained cheeks dried, leaving an uncomfortable sensation on my face.

I couldn't even say anything, I just stared at her, not even at her, through her. I was numb. It was like I wasn't in control of my body, only stuck in my mind, flashbacks of all the wrong things playing in the back of my mind.