Discordance

Chapter Twenty-Eight

Akshara woke up and was surprised to feel Abhimanyu's arms around her, why was he still home? Immediately she remembered the night before and blushed from root to tip, how the hell had she gone on to ask him to kiss her, where had all the bravado come from?

She had been driving home and all she could think about was Abhimanyu and this led her mind to be stuck on the kiss like it always did but nowhere in her brain had she made a conscious decision to ask him to kiss her, it just got out, especially when she saw him rambling about his day. It was so cute and sweet and Akshara's brain kept focusing on his soft lips and how they would feel over hers and there she was doing it before she could talk herself out of it. When he was rightfully concerned and asked her if she was sure, she was about to back out but then she felt his hands soothing her back so lovingly that she instantly melted in his embrace, a soft plea leaving her lips.

Now with his hand on her waist and his legs tangled with hers, she wasn't sure how to act. She was so insecure about her inexperience and just nervous that she would be doing something wrong. Her mind flashed to the moment when she felt HIM like that and her blood ran cold, that was too much for her already modest mind to think about and her brain would explode if she thought along those lines any further.

But fate seemed to be particularly unkind to her because as she wiggled trying to free herself from his hold, her butt inevitably rubbed against his groin and she froze the moment she felt him harden behind her. Fuck.

"Monkey are you trying to kill me?" he sleepily groaned behind her and now Akshara was doubly distracted because his sleep roughened voice was so sexy, so gravelly that her thoughts came to a standstill, even more so when he moved her hair away from her neck and dropped a couple of kisses in the juncture where her neck met her shoulder and whatever little sanity she had, was instantly lost.

"..ss..sorry" she stammered out upping her efforts to free herself but the more she moved the more she rubbed up against him making him groan until he flipped her around and pulled her on top of him. Her startled eyes met his and the heat in them was too much for her to comprehend, she had to hide her face in his neck, words and thoughts were out of question.

She knew he thought that she was hiding out of embarrassment, which she was for the most part but she was also so bloody shy, her heart pounded every time he was near now and she couldn't speak to him even if she wanted to. But more than that, she loved how he smelled of amber and saffron, especially right where he put his aftershave and hiding her face in his neck soothed her like nothing ever did or could.

Breathing him in she rubbed her nose right there making him still and try to pry her away but she clung on tightly, she couldn't face him or the day yet.

"Monkey, you'll have to let go" he said and she could hear the grin in his voice but she shook her head "We have to talk at some point about it you know" he added and Akshara's blood froze. No, why did they have to? She didn't want to. Monster!

"Fine if you want to hide in there, I will let you, but you will listen as I talk." Ugh why did he have to be so irritatingly nice and talk about feelings and emotions all the damn time, especially hers. She had been fine for all her 23 years of existence without talking about anything personal but now here he was, annoying monster, wanting her to unpack trauma, share things with him, No thank you.

"I really really like you and you know I don't mean it as friends, right?" he murmured in her hair and her muscles coiled tight at his confession, ready to pull herself away and run. His hands holding onto her waist loosened slightly and his palms began to rub her coiled muscles in her back slowly and carefully "I know it freaks you out, but I don't expect a single thing from you baby. I told you the other day and I will keep telling you until you believe me that I only want you to talk to me, anything else is a surprising and lovely added bonus but it's not those things I want, I want you, your attention, your thoughts, opinions, emotions."