On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

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Coffee, tea or me?

I was startled to see someone enter the rest area. 

"Why are you here?"

He turned to glance behind him to make sure no one else was attempting to enter. Walang ibang tao rito sa crew rest dahil kakalabas lang nung ibang nakapag pahinga na.

Dapat kasi may naiiwan pa rin sa labas para mag asikaso sa mga passengers habang ang iba ay nagpapahinga rito.

"What the hell are you doing here? Are you crazy? You're really trying to stir up rumors, Deuce!" I made an effort to get him to leave the room, but he wouldn't go. Instead, he came up to me angrily.

"Tell me what is going on, Av. I dont understand." he said it like it's an urgent matter.

I realize that my previous statement was harsh, but I truly believe it's what's best for the two of us. I want us to focus just on our professional duties and leave our personal matters aside.

Pero di naman kami magka relasyon kaya parang wala ring silbi iyon. Basta ang gusto ko lang naman ay wala nang mamagitan sa amin ng kung ano maliban nalang sa pagiging katrabaho.

"Tell me...and i will make it right. Did i do something wrong? Tell me." He tightened his hold on my wrist and coerced me into answering. 

"Anyone can just barge in here, Deuce! What the hell are you doing!" sinubukan ko siyang itulak pero nagmamatigas siya.

"Nathan and Nicco will be here!"

Right now, all I want is to live a quiet life free from concern about either our feelings or his. I don't want to complicate matters. Our situation is complex, and I don't have time to pout or even consider the intricacies of my emotions.

"I dont care. Make me understand, please. I can't quit you, Av." He looked tall and huge even more now that we are in an enclosed room.

Tumigil ako at suminghap na lamang. "It's just that this thing between us won't work,"

He shook his head and looked at me accusingly. 

"And who the hell is Deuce anyway? Huh?!" mas lalong naging galit ang kaniyang expression dahil sa sinabi ko. "I tried to reach you but..." he continued.

"Let's just end this madness here. It is not going anywhere." I insist. Umawang ang kaniyang labi na para bang hindi makapaniwala na seryoso ako sa gustong mangyari.

"We just dont click. You're different, i am different. We both want different things,"

"You really thought that i can just straight up reject you, huh? I am not, Av. That's not my intention. I wanna show you that i am not after what you can offer...sex or lust. I want us to start in a clean slate. I want us to have a solid foundation for our relationship," He addressed my concerns and even went so far as to express his anger over them.

Di inasahan na magsasalita siya tungkol sa pangyayaring iyon kaya hindi ako nakaisip ng masasagot agad. Kinalimutan ko na nga ang pagtatampo dahil doon kasi parang ang ewan naman kung habang buhay kong dadalhin iyon.

"It's easy to just start a relationship with fucking but that won't last long. That won't help us keep out relationships healthy and genuinely happy and that is what i hoped for us, Av. Something that is genuine...more than what sex can offer." 

I was shocked by what he said and had no idea that he felt that way.

He did make me feel awful and unwanted, but I didn't want to focus my attention on those things. Pero ang marinig ang ibang perspective tungkol doon at lalo pa na galing pa sa kaniya at paniniwala niya ay nagpabigla sa akin.