On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

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Cycle

I wondered what would make him dislike me even more now that he saw me in such a bad light. Nothing. He despises me so much that he already has an image of me in his head. Perhaps I did it to keep him from hurting me and to stop him from saying anything more hurtful. I moved in closer, starting to kiss him.

"Mmh, now what happens if our colleagues see you doing something like that huh?" He rolls his eyes amusingly, as if he's mocking me for wanting him so much.

I feel his lips on mine once more.

"You said they've all been here done this so this shouldn't be a shock to them and they're all tired and asleep,"

"We shouldn't." He chuckles.

Napapikit ako sa hiya noticing how he's testing me, trying to see how much I can risk for this.

"We shouldn't."

"Then stop hurting me," bulong ko sa kaniya just to appear clever but there's an underneath sadness that wants to emerge while I giggle in between kisses.

Huminto siya para tignan ako.

"What changed?" 

"Huh?

"After wanting to keep me as your dirty secret, why are you being loud about us now like you're being too upfront about this in public."

"You answer that first."  sagot ko sa kaniya. I wanna know why he changed his mind and decided to end things with me when in fact i am already decided and sure about it.

It's fun and thrilling at first when we kiss but when he plants a kiss on my neck, everything changes.

"Your girls will hate me even more now if they'll see you're enjoying this so much,"

"No one is looking." he grabbed my hand and guided me until i reached his jeans. He put his palm against my chest and started rubbing while he kisses my neck.

"I thought you wanted me to undress here? You can undress me if you want,"

"And what? Have them savored what's mine?" he growled.

I stiffened when a foreign word left his mouth. 

"Yours?" gulat kong reaction.

Hindi na siya sumagot sa akin kaya napailing nalang ako.

"If you badly want to dispose me you should have settled things properly and not confuse me. How long should i have to wait for you to give me a chance...just a little bit of your time? It's unfair to leave things like that, Deuce. Leaving me on a position where i don't know where to stand,"

"Say that to your dumb Carlos then," he gritted.

I paused.

"You say things like that as if i am the only one entertaining other people." i murmured. No matter how i am bothered by the idea of him hanging out with Andrea i tried so hard to stop myself from mentioning about it.

"Is it just fair to settle things before you leave? Like leave a note at least? An instruction manual on how to satisfy myself without you, you could have at least have an initiative to do that."

He laughed mockingly.

"Did I just hear you admit that no one can satisfy you? Do tell how bad you want me, princess."