On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

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Loss

I lost the baby.

Hindi ko alam na buntis nga ako kasi sa sobrang pagmamadali ko ay hindi ko na nahintay ang result at naiwan iyon sa lamesa kung saan sila Dinara and Yoni.

My friends messaged Deuce about the results but it's too late.

"You got her pregnant?" I observed the hue of his face. It seemed as though the life flow had been sucked from me and I had no more right to breathe.

His voice, when he tells me the truth, keeps echoing in my head.

That's all i can remember from the night i lost my baby. I am grieving for my loss and i cant stop myself from blaming him for the death of our child. Hindi ko inasahan na magiging ganito kalala ang pagluluksa ko.

Sabi naman nila Dinara ay baka post partum daw kaya masyado akong naguguluhan sa aking emosyon. Gabi gabi akong umiiyak dahil sa pagkamatay ng anak ko.

Hindi ko man siya nahagkan pero sobrang sakit para sa akin ang mamatayan. Akala ko hindi ko mararasan ito at umasa rin ako na sana hindi ako masyadong nasasaktan dahil noong una naman ay ayaw kong magka anak hindi ba pero bakit ngayon para akong paulit ulit na namatayan.

Hindi ko alam kung paano ako babangon muli at paano ko malalampasan ang pagkawala na to.

Alam niya kung bakit ako nakunan at nakita niya naman na kahit ako man na ayaw magkaroon ng anak ay hindi ko piniling ipalaglag ang bata.

"And what happened to her boyfriend? He's been pulling away from the situation for weeks now. Av has recently lost his child and he is acting like a jerk as usual." may halong inis na sabi ni Giulia at nakapameywang pa.

Nag aayos na ako ng gamit. Matagal din akong nag pahinga at hindi ko na rin kaya na magmukmok pa rito baka mas lalo lang akong mawawalan ng gana sa buhay.

"I'm very sorry, honey. Oh. Men grieve differently, and it is the most crucial thing you should know right now. It might be that not much is being spoken at this stage. Please avoid from punishing him or interpreting it as a slight against you. It isn't. When he approaches you, be nice and give him some time. We all grieve in different ways, and nobody is to blame for this."

Cello is really good to me these days. Noong nasa hospital ako ay pamilya ni Deuce ang nag alaga sa akin at maging ang kaniyang ina ay nasa aking kwarto palagi nakabantay.

"Quit it, mom. He is not a boy he needs to man up," singhal ni Giulia. Galit at hindi sumang ayon si Giulia sa sinabi ng ina.

Bumisita rin ang mga kaibigan pero dahil nga hindi naman ako makausap ng maayos ay minabuti nila Giulia na limitahan na muna ang bisita dahil buong pamilya nga ang naglukuksa.

"All of these for what, really? He's not even the father of Caren's baby. The result was out last night and it's confirmed."

Natigil ako sa pag aayos dahil sa narinig mula kay Fabio.

"Obviously she only wants a percentage of Herve's assets," umiling si Giulia.

"Not to mention the amount of child support she requires and shared ownership of the law firm."

Nalaman na nga ni Cello ang lahat kaya galit na galit ang buong pamilya ngayon kay Caren. I sighed and continued packing my bag.

"He's such an idiotic bastard! Observe what he just did to Av! He found out that his wife had deceived him and that the child wasn't really his, after he had been ignoring his girlfriend in favor of his unfaithful wife! Only to end up having Reno as the father of Caren's child!"