On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

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I asked him to drop me off at my apartment instead of leaving me alone in his. Nakatulog naman kami ng ilang oras pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na makaramdam ng antok. 

I feel like my existence revolves around him, and my day begins only when he's here with me. 

Is this still normal?

Trabaho lang ang inatupag ko nitong mga nagdaang araw pero parang walang halaga iyong mga araw na iyon. Pinalipas ko lang na parang isang routine na dapat kong gampanan. Gigising ng maaga para sa trabaho tapos uuwing pagod at atat na makapagpahinga.

Noon naman ay hindi ako ganito pero ngayon parang nababaliw ang aking sistema at di malaman kung ano ang dapat na gawin. I can't stop thinking about him and have these intense cravings to see and be with him.

I would like to know when we will be seeing each other again and whether I should spend the night in his apartment or if we will be traveling on the same plane and spending our layovers together.

I should prioritize my work and my career but all I can think about is him pero kahit na gustong gusto ko nang malaman kung kamusta siya ay di ko magawa.

Hindi naman talaga ako nagtetext o tumatawag sa kaniya kaya kung gagawin ko iyon ngayon ng biglaan ay parang nakakabahala. 

It was my first time doing it, and I never imagined that I would get so fascinated perhaps even obsessed with it. It was a new experience for me, and the sensation it can provide has made me addicted to it, which is why I am reacting with such great thirst and hunger.

Parang naiisip ko tuloy na maling mali na may nangyari sa aming dalawa. It is like i am magically chained to his bed even though i am physically here at work.

Is this the reason why sex is limited and advisable to married couples exclusively, as it can drive one insane and lead to obsessive compulsive behaviors?

Is it actually true that doing it will lead to a romantic relationship? I feel as though a spell has been placed upon me, and all I can think about is being with him at all times.

Am I ready to commit to a relationship merely because my body need him? Does this imply that we need a relationship in order to connect, or does it offer us both the right to have one?

I find it hard to stop thinking about how he made me feel that evening pero senyales na ba ito na dapat seryosohin na?

Kapag ba gusto ng katawan ay gusto na rin ng puso at utak? Dapat ba pumasok sa isang relasyon pag ganoon nga? Paano ko ba malalaman na gusto ko ang tao o mahal ko na?

Ang babaw ng mga rason at madali rin bawiin ang emosyon na iyon. Isang pagkakamali lang o isang kakulangan ng isang tao ay pwede mo nang bawiin agad ang lahat ng iyon. It's shallow and often always in the surface level if that's the case.

I liked my friends and even my crushes back when i am still studying. Naiisip ko rin sila at nagiging masaya rin naman ako habang may gusto ako sa kanila. So anong pinagkaibahan ni Deuce sa mga nagustuhan ko noon?

"If anyone brags about how good they are," Dinara continued talking as we walked through the hallway to the coffeehouse.

"What?

"They're going to be terrible." nilapag na namin ang aming gamit at naupo na.

"That's why I tell every woman I'm going to last eight seconds and cry for a few minutes afterwards." Nicco smirked annoyingly.

"Bet it is always half meant. We should be sad for that girl who's letting you fuck,"

"Damn," nagtawanan ang lahat.