On His Roster (Aviación #1) Completed

20

First meet

Deuce and I had not seen each other for two weeks. I realized that if you don't try to make time for each other in your relationship, it's not very easy to maintain. It truly takes effort to give someone the impression that they are important.

I didn't even leave the hotel during the layover, and we didn't chat for the entire journey. Sa totoo lang i am glad that i was alone the whole time since I won't have to go on trips with my colleagues.

kakalapag lang namin sa airport at tinatapos lang ang ibang post-flight responsibilities dito sa opisina.

"I'm sorry," 

I paused.

Binaba ko ang hawak na papeles sa lamesa at hinarap siya. He's still wearing his work clothes.

"I apologize for what transpired in Italy. I acknowledge that I went too far and that what I did to you wasn't right.  I know that i crossed some boundaries and I shouldn't have done that to you. I accept responsibility for it all, as it was entirely my fault." Deuce said, his gaze dropped with remorse in his eyes. Lips stretched tight, then quickly shifted as his brows drew together.

"I apologize for hurting you. It was my mistake for assuming that you found it enjoyable. I swear I won't do that to you ever again, and if you ever catch me stepping over the line, I'd prefer you snapping at me rather than being silent, Av." inabot niya ang aking kamay at mahigpit na hinawakan iyon.

Pumait ang aking sikmura dahil sa di inasahan na pag uusap. Nasa office pa kaming dalawa at maraming makakakita at malamang maraming makakarinig sa usapan at ayaw ko nun.

"Let's not talk about it here. This is not the right place for that," 

"Of course...we'll talk outside if you want," he nodded obediently. 

Tumayo ako at ginawa lang ang kailangan na ipasang papeles. He waited patiently, so silent the whole time.

"I tried to reach you but you're not answering me back." patuloy niya. 

Silently walking through the airport hallway while i try to tail behind him not wanting to exit side by side to each other.

"Were you sick the past few weeks? I was worried about you and i called Nathan to ask how you've been, but that asshole is pretty useless."

Pinagbuksan niya ako ng pintuan ng kaniyang kotse kaya wala akong nagawa at pumasok na roon para matapos na ang usapan na ito.

"Just dont push me away, please, Av." he said as soon as he's seated on the driver seat. "Let me be in your space and don't force me out."

Nanatili ang mga mata ko sa kaniya at seryosong nakinig sa bawat salita.

"We're in the same friend group, Deuce. How can i even do that? Even if i wanted to I couldn't."

He swallowed a lump in his throat.

"I am sorry for losing my shit that night it's just that sometimes i am not in control of what i feel. The exact reason why i am obsessed of always being in control and i try to be mindful of everything that i do because i also hate the person i am turning into when i am batshit crazy, Av."

"I hate having moments of being the person that I don't like. I am human and i also have moments and episodes of being a worst asshole possible—"