IT'S a new day. Except that I'm still breaking down in my hidden place. This place has been my safe haven after we stopped begging the heavens to let us be together.
When I lost him that night of our break-up, I found this place by accident. And 'til that day, this place became my go-to place everytime I feel like shit.
Saksi ang payapang tubig sa lawa na ito, ang mga puno sa paligid, malalaking bato, mga ibon sa sanga, at ang mga tuyong dahon na nahulog sa lupa sa lahat kong pag-iyak at pagsusumamo. Dito sa lugar na ito ko hinahayaang bumuhos lahat nang nararamdaman ko.
What was said and done here will remain here forever. I don't intend on talking about this with anyone. I hate it when people see me vulnerable. I mean, I am...pero ayaw kong nakikita ito nang iba kaya itinatago ko sa abot nang aking makakaya.
But, tonight...I knew I wasn't alone.
The wind is cold like the usual but weirdly, it's not enough to make me shiver like it used to.
I can feel someone's warmth from a distant. I can feel the heaviness of the stranger's breath. Like a thief in the night he stole a small piece of loneliness from me.
And I thank him for that in the back of my mind.
His scent lingers on the air when he left, and I knew from that moment that with him, my secret is safe and secured.
He saw me in my most vulnerable state and yet, he still loves me. He loved me in times of happiness and loved me even more during the times of despair.
How could this universe let me have him for a while and then took him away forever?
"Colton..." I cried out his name.
NOVEMBER 1 nagkaroon nang emergency sa bahay. Napilitan akong umuwi sa probinsiya namin para puntahan ang pamilya ko.
Panay sulyap ko sa relong pambisig, kung gagabihin ako rito at magta-travel pabalik ng syudad...hindi ko siya maabutan.
"What happened, kuya?" tanong ko nang masalubong sa hallway ng hospital ang nakatatanda kong kapatid.
Kuya Trainor is few years older than me. We were close to each other, but we grew apart. Hanggang nagkapamilya siya ay hindi ko na ito nasubaybayan at ganoon din siya sa akin.
We seldom communicate. I was hated by a lot of our relatives, lalo na sa side ni Papa. Dahil mas pinili kong mag-abogado kaysa manatili rito at samahan silang palaguin ang farm namin.
Na nalugi at nabenta dahil sa kagipitan noong nasa kolehiyo ako, pero binili ko itong muli at ipinangalan sa papa ko nang maka-ipon ako.
Sa totoo lang ay kaya ko naman bilihin ang buong hacienda na hindi na sakop ng pamilya namin dahil sa pinaghalong sahod ko ngayon...pero hindi ko ginagawa.
Alam kong mas lalo akong kagagalitan at baka tuluyan pang itakwil nang sarili kong ama.
Ayaw niya na nagyayabang ako sakaniya. Ayaw niya na magbibigay ako nang malaking pera. Ayaw niya na ipinapakita kong nagtagumpay ako matapos kong lumayas sa bahay namin. Ayaw niyang maramdaman na may ipinagmamalaki na ako ngayon...In his eyes, I'm just his stubborn amd rebellious daughter.
"Dad fell while riding his horse" sagot ng kuya ko sa tamad na tono.
He doesn't seem worried or anything. Ang mukha nito ay kalmado lamang. Ang iilang hibla ng kulot na buhok niya ay lumalaglag sa kaniyang makinis na noo.
"Is it bad? Why did you call me?" medyo iritado ang boses ko, pinapantayan ang gaspang sa kaniyang pananalita.
Muli ay sinulyapan ko ang oras sa aking relo.
BINABASA MO ANG
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