Twisted love.|| BILL KAULITZ

𝐇𝐢𝐬 '𝐇𝐞𝐥𝐩𝐞𝐫'

I watched as bill pulled out a small white bag, a red bow tied at the top, his painted nails squishing the bag slightly. Freya's eyes fell onto me, a small grin plastered on her face. I retrieved the bag from bill, undoing the knots at the top, peeking inside. A small black box lay at the bottom,my initials engraved into the cardboard. I discarded the empty bag onto the floor before opening up the small box, my eyes landing onto a blue diamond necklace, the gemstones shining under the low sun. I trailed my finger across the diamond, the butterflies in my stomach beginning to flutter again.

"Do you like it?" Bill asked, picking the necklace out of my clammy hands.

"It's beautiful" I smiled, lifting up my hair.

I swivelled my body to the right, allowing him to clip the necklace around my neck, the diamond falling below my collarbone. My hair dropped down onto my back, bill placing a kiss on my warm cheeks, his hand caressing my thigh. I've always wanted a necklace like this, blue is my favourite colour. Part of the reason being because it reminds me of the ocean which I love, although I could never understand why blue diamonds cost so much. I'm surprised bill knew about all that, I didn't think he payed that much attention.

𝟏𝟕:𝟎𝟖𝐩𝐦
I began the long walk back to my hotel room, bill has been gone for about twenty minutes now. Freya said that she needed a nap which I know is a lie, I just don't know why. My pounding heartbeat shook the necklace laying across my chest, my nails digging into my hands, my breathing hitched. I patted my feet onto the floor, patiently waiting for the elevator. The anticipation becoming worse by the minute, knowing that it could all be over soon. The pain in my temples getting worse, deep breaths escaping my parted lips.

I quickly shoved myself into the empty elevator, pressing the third floor button instantly, slouching back as the doors shut. The sound of metal scraping against each other, screeching through my ears. The faint taste of alcohol burning the back of my throat, my head pounding with fear. Being cheated on is one thing but the other woman being your best friend is sickening, the sinking realisation moment never gets easier. The blinking yellow button alerted me, my feet refusing to move, my body stiff. Our room being inches away, my stomach turning.

I took in a deep breath before forcing myself to walk, my lips pushing together, my flip flops creating an irritating noise. I stared at the white door, my hand shaking above the silver handle, bill's voice flowing through my ears. I squinted my eyes shut as I swung the door open, my eyes opening to see bill handing Freya money.

"What's going on?." I murmured, my voice shaky.

"Great now it's ruined" bill frowned, slouching onto the bed.

"What is? I saw the messages so tell me what's been going on." I demanded, walking ahead.

"Shall I tell her?" Freya asked.

"Well you might as well" bill sighed, cupping his face.

"Bill came to me a few days ago, he wanted to buy a gift for you but he didn't know what you liked. That in mind I helped him, he didn't want you to find out because he thought you'd be angry that he didn't know what to get you." She hummed.

"That makes no sense. You told him that you didn't want to be a secret anymore." I huffed, scanning her up and down.

"You've got it wrong. I didn't want mine and bills friendship to be a secret because I felt like I was betraying you, I know you haven't had good experiences with girls being friends with your partner in the past" she smiled.

"I thought there was something going on between you two" I groaned, mentally slapping myself.

"No way! You know how much I like Georg" she chuckled.

"Thank god" I laughed, relaxing a little.

"Well I'll see you two later, I've got to meet Georg" Freya winked.

I nodded, watching her leave before turning back to an embarrassed bill, his lips pouted. He reached out his left hand, cupping it around my waist, eventually pulling me onto his lap.

"Sorry" he whispered, leaning his head against my chest.

"Bill. You could have just asked me" I tutted.

"I wanted it to be a surprise" he pouted, caressing my hands.

"I thought you were cheating" I shrugged.

"I wouldn't hurt you like that again" he spoke, shaking his head.

He fell backwards slowly, the mattress catching us, my body sprawled out onto his. I gently pecked his lips before leaving his grasp, heading towards the bathroom, flicking off my shoes. Something still feels off but what? If they were doing anything I would've saw right? Although if they knew I was coming then they could've made something up, it's probably a long shot but I still don't fully trust bill yet. I usually overthink in relationships but most of the time I'm right which isn't as good as it seems, being cheated on is never easy. You always feel as if you're not good enough, never will be. Until you find someone who makes you feel amazing and loved just to end up where you started again, that same excuse always being used. "It's not you, it's me" yeah right.

I let out a sigh, flashing a smile at myself in the mirror, my abrupt thoughts still racing. I picked at my damp bikini, stripping it from my tanned body before flicking on the shower, being grateful for the cold refreshing water. I could hear bill's faint voice in the background, the shower blocking out his words. I hung my head low, allowing the water to trickle through my hair slowly, dripping onto my red face..