Twisted love.|| BILL KAULITZ

𝐏𝐫𝐞𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬.

I plopped down onto the messy bed, Georg collecting my belongings from Bill's room, my throat aching. I stared down at my shaky hands, picking at the nail polish. What just happened? I really wish that this was all a faded dream, still believe bill wouldn't hurt me. The anger in his dark eyes was terrifying, his strong hands still plastered on my body. If he really loved me then why cheat? He acted like I was leaving him when in reality he left me a long time ago, that's if he was ever mine. I won't let him ruin the rest of this trip, it's supposed to be a nice break.

My eyes shot up, seeing a cheery Freya, her face soon dropping.

"what happened?" She gasped, looking at my red neck.

"Don't worry about it" I sniffled.

"Tell me" she pouted, sitting next to me.

"It doesn't matter." I frowned.

My gaze left her's, turning onto an angry Georg. I immediately jumped up, taking my suitcase from his grasp, dragging it towards the vanity. The room fell silent, only low breathing could be heard. I began unzipping my suitcase, searching around for a bikini.

"Are you sure you want to go down after that?" Georg asked.

"Yes." I scowled, snatching a black bikini.

I rushed past him, locking myself into the foggy bathroom before removing Freya's pjs. I shoved them into the washing basket, pulling up the bikini bottoms.

𝟏𝟔:𝟑𝟓𝐩𝐦

I stretched out my body, the sun sinking into my gleaming skin.

"Are we all going out tonight?" Sophia questioned, sipping on a drink.

"definitely" I smiled, sitting up.

"Thank god, after all the drama I thought we'd be stuck here" she snickered.

"no but where did Beth go?" I asked, meeting her soft gaze.

"She left earlier today, she took a plane back to Germany" sophia shrugged.

My eyebrows rose up, a smile appearing on my face. I don't even want to talk to her again, she's a two faced bitch. When I get back to Germany she'll no longer be apart of our band, I'll look for someone new. She doesn't deserve the love our fans give, for all I care she can rot in a ditch.

My eyes fell low as bill made his way over to the sunbeds, sunglasses covering his eyes. He came to a halt by my bed, looking down at me, my brows furrowed.

"Can we talk?" He asked, lifting up his glasses.

"as if" I frowned.

"Let him explain" Tom added, shooting a glance at me.

"There's nothing to explain" I scoffed.

"please, you don't have to respond I'll do the talking" bill sighed, his gaze soft.

I let out a low groan, slipping off of the sun bed, pushing on my flip flops. Bill began to walk, his eyes set on the beach across the street. His messy hair swayed as he walked, his lips pushed together.

"I'll start off with I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you" he whispered, looking down at me.

I rolled my eyes, annoyed at his empty words. My feet flicking up sand, hitting my tanned legs. He slouched down onto the floor, motioning for me to sit. A sigh left my lips as I hit the sand, my gaze staring out at the ocean. The low sun hitting the waves perfectly, distant screams from tourists.

"Listen y/n, at first I was playing a game with you. I wanted to see how far I could push you and I went too far. I've never loved someone as much as I do you, I know my words probably don't mean much now but it's the truth. I was angry, mostly at myself and I shouldn't have took it out on you." He sighed.

"but you still cheated?" I tutted, my lips pushed together.

"Because I was scared, not like it's an excuse but our connection scares me." He shrugged.

"I loved you bill, I really did but the way you acted earlier just proves you're not ready for a relationship. I won't be your back up plan." I huffed, pressing my hands into the soft sand.

"Tell me how to fix it and I will" he pouted.

"It's over bill." I spoke, my words shaky.

His face fell blank, his eyes scanning over my features. I'll always love him but I can't be with somebody who doesn't see my worth. If he really loved me he'd put in the effort, small talk won't work on me, not anymore. I made myself unavailable for him, I wasted my time for nothing. Starting from now I'll be putting myself first, I want to explore my options. Go on sweet dates, kiss random guys, party without any worry of pissing my partner off.

"I'll see you around" I hummed, getting up.

"y/n" he whispered.

I shut my eyes, making my way off of the beach, his voice becoming quieter. I could see Georg and Freya keeping an eye on me, making me chuckle slightly. My hands swayed gently by my torso, a fresh breeze running through my hair. A weight being taken off of my shoulders, a soft smile appearing on my face.

"And she returns in one piece!" Georg joked.

"No need to worry, I ended it" I chuckled, sitting on my warm sun bed.

"Finally" Freya smirked.

"I can't wait for tonight" I winked, kicking my shoes off.

"Oh god" Georg snickered.

I slouched back into the bed, resting my arms behind my head, bill returning to the group. He passed me with a glare, sitting next to Tom and Sophia. His dark eyes piercing into my skin, his jaw clenched.

"We'll find you a lovely girl don't stress" Tom whispered, patting his back.

"I don't want a 'lovely' girl" bill scowled.

I turned my gaze away from him, closing my eyes to enjoy the last of the sun..