I pushed a spoon full of warm beans into my mouth, bill sipping on his coffee next to me, the beaming sun reflecting onto our table.
"I want to apologise for everything that I put you through" bill hummed, grabbing my attention.
"why are you being weird?" I asked, confused.
"I'm not, I want to start over" he chuckled.
"I already told you it's over." I sighed, twirling my fork.
"No I mean as friends, if that's okay" he smiled.
"Just friends?" I questioned, slouching back.
"Yeah, I think we'd be better off that way" he nodded, placing his empty cup down.
I stared at him for a moment, the strange feeling returning, spreading throughout my body. This is confusing, one minute he's trying to kiss me the next he wants to be friends. The strangest thing is that he seems sincere, as if he lost all feelings towards me, that quickly? I mean I said I was going to move on so that's what I'll do, I guess it is easier this way but still painful.
My gaze moved to Freya and Georg, smiles appearing on their faces as they joined us.
"What are you doing here?" Freya frowned, looking at bill.
"I want to clear all the bad energy between us all, I was wrong to do what I did, to all of you." He laughed.
"Is this a joke?" Georg spat, raising his eyebrow.
"No, I'm being honest. I'm sorry." Bill huffed, tapping his nails against the wood.
"What do you think of this?" Freya asked, turning her attention to me.
"If he's being truthful then I can't see why not, there's no point in arguing" I shrugged.
They both nodded, my eyes falling to the ground.
-𝟏𝟑:𝟒𝟓𝐩𝐦-
My feet sunk into the soft sand, my towel lightly brushing against my legs. We'd decided to come down to the beach today as we were supposed to a few days ago but there was too much drama. I've always been a fan of the beach, something about it makes me feel safe.
I lay down my towel, dropping a small stone onto the end to keep it down before taking my cover up off. I plopped down onto the towel, my shades keeping me from the blinding sun above. My attention turned to my phone, a buzzing noise coming from my bag. I pulled it out, flipping the screen open to see a message from Chris.
𝐂𝐡𝐫𝐢𝐬
𝟏𝟑:𝟒𝟔𝐩𝐦
"𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐁𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥, 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠
𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐬𝐲. 𝐇𝐨𝐰
𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮?"
𝟏𝟑:𝟒𝟔𝐩𝐦
"𝐡𝐞𝐲, 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭.
𝐈𝐦 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭, 𝐲𝐨𝐮?"
𝟏𝟑:𝟒𝟕𝐩𝐦
"𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫, 𝐢𝐦 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝.
𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐮𝐩 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐨𝐝𝐚𝐲?"
𝟏𝟑:𝟒𝟕𝐩𝐦
"𝐢𝐦 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐥𝐨𝐥, 𝐲𝐨𝐮
𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧 ;)"
𝟏𝟑:𝟒𝟖𝐩𝐦
"𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞, 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡?"
𝟏𝟑:𝟒𝟗𝐩𝐦
"𝐧𝐨𝐯𝐚 𝐢𝐜𝐚̀𝐫𝐢𝐚, 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐨𝐨𝐧?"
𝟏𝟑:𝟓𝟎𝐩𝐦
"𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰"
𝟏𝟑:𝟓𝟎𝐩𝐦
"𝐢 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐢𝐭"
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I threw my phone back into my small bag, grabbing my tanning oil out, flicking the lid off. I gently applied the oil to my body, already feeling the heat. I clenched my eyes shut suddenly, Freya flicking sand onto my face.
"Sorry" she laughed, wiping my face.
I rolled my eyes, grateful that I didn't end up blind. She lay on her stomach, staring at me.
"What?" I asked, pushing my lips out.
"What did you think about bill saying he wants to be friends?" She questioned, tilting her head.
"I don't know" I shrugged.
"Well he seems to have meant it" she pointed, my gaze moving to him.
A small blonde girl perched up on his back, his hands wrapped underneath her legs, running down to the sea. As if I care. It's not like I was in love with him for years, made myself unavailable to everyone. I never really had him, I thought I did for a moment. Especially at that restaurant, that stupid restaurant. Do you ever move on from your first love? It's a question I've had for awhile, sometimes I still feel a pit in my stomach when I see him. It's like there's something missing inside of me, when I was with him I felt whole again. All I ever wanted was love, I've always been the friend that ended up alone. The one who had to be independent even when I couldn't, when all I wanted was a person to understand me.
"Hellooo?" Freya dragged, nudging my arm.
"uh sorry, what was we talking about?" I sighed.
"you still love him don't you?" She pouted, sitting up.
"no. He's a liar" I chuckled.
"y/n" she huffed, rubbing my arm.
"I'm not!" I frowned, swatting her away.
She let out a low sigh, her sad eyes sinking into my face. Bill's voice echoing into my ears, high pitched laughter following as he placed down the girl. I clenched my jaw as they walked up to us, her light green eyes shining under the sun, her perfect body swaying next to him.
"I'd like you to all meet Lauren" bill smiled, placing his arm around her small shoulders.
"Nice to meet you" Sophia hummed, hugging her.
"you too! I hope we can all get along, I need some girl pals" she chuckled, even her laugh sounding perfect.
"Don't worry you're welcome here, she'll be spending time with us." Bill tutted, sitting down opposite me.
Lauren plopped down onto his lap, her elegant hair gently hitting against her back. It would hurt less if she wasn't so pretty, I mean she looks like a model. Her green eyes met mine, a warm smile on her tanned face, her painted nails running along Bill's chest. Creating hearts over his stomach, her long eyelashes fluttering.
"So where are you from?" Freya asked, raising her eyebrows.
"California but I moved to LA to become a model full time" she winked.
oh great so she is a model, even better.
"Wow, well you are gorgeous" Sophia panted, her niceness making me sick.
I looked up, searching Bill's eyes, his never meeting mine. Only ever staying on Lauren, his hands caressing her flawless face..
YOU ARE READING
Twisted love.|| BILL KAULITZ
RomanceTwo band members clash, will they be able to work past it and look deeper?
