Our Forever (BILLIE EILISH)

- T w e n t y s e v e n -

November 12th

Billie's POV:

Since I've seen Maddie my life has been hectic, I made a promise that I was going to make this better and I meant every word. I'm finishing the album, working and writing every day, this is getting done immediately.

I know Maddie doesn't like Holden either, I think that just happened in the spur of the moment and that was never planned. I know Holden really cares about Maddie and he wouldn't do anything to hurt her.

Seeing how hurt Maddie was when she saw me, I hated that and I never want to see Maddie that hurt again. I tried to be mean to Maddie so she would hate me, but she has nothing but love for me.

Therefore I am is getting released today, and I also have a meeting with the record company to choose the final songs for the album. This is my third meeting trying to pick the final songs, and if it were up to me entirely, this album would've been finalized. But they have me trying to match a certain vibe and they're being extremely picky.

I've also seen Jesse damn near every day and I hate to say that he really inspires me... to get my shit done. So my life can get back to normal. There's no guarantee that my life is going to go back to normal though, what if Maddie doesn't want me? What if she doesn't hear me out?

That question is in the back of my mind every single day, I try to envision how she's going to handle me eventually telling her, and I try to imagine how she's going to react. I think it depends on whether I give her the letters, I'm still on the fence about that too.

I have a few hours to kill before I have to be at the studio, I text Maddie.

                            Shorty ❤️

                                                    are you home?

Yes ma'am

                                                    can I see you?

Duh

Read at 1:34 P.M.

I feel the giddiness enter my system and I have to take a lap around my house before I leave. It does not take me long to get over there, I'm dressed in all black and my hood is on, it's broad daylight and I'm doing things that are risking my career.

I move the rock in the flower pot and unlock the door as quickly as I can, and I let out a sigh of relief once I get inside. I don't even have to make a noise and the dogs are at my feet, I bend down and pet them until they calm down.

Billie: "Maddie!"

Maddie: "Glam room!"

As I'm walking up the stairs I turn my location off and I tell Finneas that I'll meet him at the studio.

I open the glam room door and Maddie is sitting at her vanity and she's doing her makeup, she lights up when she sees me.

Maddie: "Hi." She got up and hugged me.

I pulled her closer to me.

Billie: "Hi shorty."

She hugged me tighter and I don't let go until she does.

Maddie: "I missed you, what have you been doing?" She sat back down at her vanity and I sat on the couch so she could see me in the mirror as I talked to her.

Billie: "Been working nonstop to finish my album, we're picking the final songs today."

I see her bite back a smile as she applies her blush. She never does a full face of makeup so I'm curious what she's doing.

Billie: "What are you doing today?"

Maddie: "I have a movie premiere tonight and I don't want to go."

Billie: "At least you get to dress up and walk a carpet, you haven't walked a carpet in a minute."

Maddie: "Mmm true."

I'm watching her do her makeup in the mirror, and it's peacefully silent between us. Being with her, especially with the terms that we're supposed to be on, gives me a lot of hope.

She's not looking at me because she's focused on what she's doing but anytime her eyes meet mine, they linger. I know there's a lot left unsaid between us.

I want her to be sitting by me, I want to touch her.

Billie: "Take a break, come sit by me."

She raised her eyebrow at me but didn't ask any questions.

I move the pillow that's on the right side of me so she can sit down, I purposely don't move the other pillow on the other side, so therefore there isn't much space on this couch.

She got comfortable on the couch which required her legs to go over my lap and she rested her arm on the back of the couch. Her eyes never left mine since the second she sat down.

Maddie: "You're so pretty." She tucked my hair behind my ear, she started messing with my earrings.

Billie: "Says you."

She smiles and I watch her eyes travel down to my lips, she doesn't lean in though. I look at her lips too.

Maddie: "What are you doing?"

Billie: "What you did."

Maddie: "You wanna kiss me?"

Billie: "Mhm, real bad."

She smirks and leans in but she doesn't connect her lips to mine.

Maddie: "You have a boyfriend." She mumbled against my lips.

Billie: "And you have whatever the fuck it is going on with Holden."

Maddie: "Jealous?"

Billie: "Never that, he's not me."

Maddie: "Cocky much?"

Billie: "Definitely not, I know what you like, and it's not him."

Maddie: "Mhm, it's you."

Billie: "So let me kiss you."

Maddie: "So kiss me."

That's all I needed to hear.

I lean the rest of the way in and kiss her, she kisses me back instantly. It's about two seconds before she's straddling me, I'm making it a point to not escalate this.

I had no intent of kissing her today, I simply just wanted to see her, but her energy was telling me something completely different.

Her hands are connected around my neck and my hands are on her hips, pulling her into me. She couldn't stop smiling in the kiss, I pulled away because I wanted to look at her.

Maddie: "I'm sorry."

Billie: "What are you sorry for?"

Maddie: "For what I wrote in my journal, and what you read. Whether you believe me or not, it was out of context."

Billie: "Why are you apologizing? I snooped and read your journal, I know better than to do that. I just felt so disconnected from you because of my album. I just wanted to see inside your mind, but I should've asked you instead."

Maddie: "I wouldn't have had to journal about that if I just brought it up to you."

I shrugged.

Billie: "I'm really sorry that I read your journal shorty."

Maddie: "I'mma say it's cool this time, but don't do it again." She laughed.

Billie: "Promise."

She stuck her pinky out, and I smiled and locked mine with hers.

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absolutely love this chapter, idk

thanks ily

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