Book 3/3
Life is finally settling down, the tour ends, and they're back in L.A. Maddie and Billie think their lives are calm, but they never thought about how hard it would be to plan a wedding, and they never realized how much their schedules would...
Billie and I woke up around 11, we slept on the plane and when we got here it was already morning so we just slept for a few hours.
We took our time getting ready, we decided to book a house in the heart of Italy instead of a hotel.
I made sure to charge my camera battery last night, so that way we could film today and Holden could edit it today, and get it posted today. We decided to post it on my YouTube because to be honest, I've BEEN wanting to talk about all this, so it can be under my name, I don't care.
I'm just happy things are back how they were and we can move on going forward after this.
Billie and I are sitting at the kitchen island, I'm making sure the camera's in focus and not crooked while Billie's making silly faces. I'm surprised she even suggested doing this, I know this isn't her thing.
I pressed record and when I sat down, I made sure it didn't unfocus. Once it was good, we started talking.
Maddie "So obviously this isn't what I normally do or anything, but after some legal discussions we got the green light to finally tell you guys what was going on."
Billie: "For the last year, my record label was working me 12-hour days 6 days a week trying to push out my album. Which I had no creative directory and no control over. While I was working so hard, planning the wedding inevitably got put on the back burner. Maddie tried to sit me down and tell me that we could plan the wedding after the album because she thinks my career is more important."
Maddie: "I never wanted to come in between her career, so when she would come home drained from everything I didn't really pry. I was just trying to get through everything. Around the same time, my manager was doing some really sleazy shit and I was trying to build my team from the ground up. Bil's album got leaked and so did our engagement, and the record label threatened to drop Billie because of what happened."
Billie: "I'm choosing Maddie in that situation and I was fully ready to walk out the door with her because there's always going to be another record label. Maddie talked me out of it and we finally decided to push our wedding back."
Maddie: "With Billie finally agreeing with me, she was working every day and so was I. At this point I finally had a team thanks to her, it was my birthday present because all that happened on my birthday."
Billie: "I was making good progress with my album, doing whatever the record label wanted. One day Maddie's in New York doing something with Holden and I get a phone call telling me that I will break up with Maddie and publicly date Jesse Rutherford for publicity for both of our albums. They told me I could go about it however I wanted. I lied to Maddie to make it seem as real as possible, if I told her exactly the truth, she would sit here and try to make it work. I didn't want to be photographed kissing him and then come home to her, it felt wrong completely."
Maddie: "With all that being said though, Billie was still seeing me and I still had faith in her and I knew she would regret that decision whether it was real or fake."
Billie: "I was just trying to finish my album so I could be with her, it was optimistic thinking that she would've forgiven me but I know she's my soulmate and I'd do anything to make it work."
Maddie: "And she did do everything to make it work, she's dropped from her record label and is unsigned, no plans of resigning until our wedding is done."
I held my hand up to the camera to show them the ring for the first time.
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I can see Billie smiling in the viewfinder.
Billie: "With all that being said, the wedding is back on and we're looking at venues today but this was a little more important. I understand what I did, and how I handled the situation might not have been the best. I was trying my best, and I did what I thought was right."
Maddie: "The comments on the paparazzi videos from the airport were calling me dumb and stupid for taking her back. I never felt that way though. This is truly the love of my life, through thick and thin and til death do us part like, this is my girl."
Billie: "Maddie figured it all out on her own, because my album wasn't quite done I don't think so I couldn't tell her anything. She showed up on my doorstep and told me to tell her everything, she left my house that night telling me she hated me but I chased her out to her car and even though she claimed she hated me, she still sat there for two hours while I told her everything."
Maddie: "I just wanted everything to go back to how it was, I didn't care really about the logistics of it. I just wanted her back."
Billie: "Later found out that it wasn't necessarily the record labels doing, Jesse went to them with the idea and the label did everything in their power to help Jesse, and they never gave a fuck about me. But on the brighter side, I have a completed album that could come out whenever. Some of the songs on there don't really connect with me so I may tweak it and release it independently down the line, but honestly, after all that, music is the last thing on my mind."
Maddie: "Since we're already here clearing the air, I know there were paparazzi pictures of Holden and me. We're just friends, and I found comfort in him during a difficult time, he's still my closest friend and videographer."
Billie: "Nothing's awkward either, we're all adults. It is what it is."
Maddie: "We're doing this to clear our names, and tell you guys the truth because I hate assumptions and my anxiety has been terrible for the last month. So maybe it'll get better now. We are getting married, we are together but that doesn't mean that we're gonna exploit the fuck out of our relationship. We're very much private but not secret kinda people. We just needed this so we could move forward and hopefully you guys can too."
We looked at each other and both gave the camera a cheesy thumbs up.
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wouldn't call this a chapter per say, just a lil recap and filler
