Our Forever (BILLIE EILISH)

- T h i r t y n i n e -

February 11th

Billie's POV:

It's been about a month, and Maddie and I are locked in planning our wedding. We leave tonight to go to Italy and look at wedding venues.

We've decided that it's just going to be close friends and family, so it'll probably be less than 50 people. Once we got Italy in our minds, we couldn't get it out.

We're in Italy for 48 hours because we both have dress fittings right when we get back.

The public still doesn't know that we're back together or that we're planning our wedding and it's been so nice not having an outside opinion. They don't know that I've been dropped from the record label or that they were behind Jesse.

With us going to the airport in an hour, I can only imagine what's about to happen. I don't want to say anything to Maddie because I've noticed her anxiety has been bad for a while, but if I don't warn her, I'm going to feel bad.

I walked up the stairs and she's in her glam room breaking down boxes from PR. She looked up and smiled once she saw me walk into the room.

Billie: "Heyyy."

She looked at me.

Billie: "So, you know the airport right?"

Maddie: "The place where they keep the planes? Heard of it. Why?"

Billie: "You know, it's a very public place... perhaps cameras or even paparazzi."

Maddie: "How would they know?"

Billie: "I have no idea, I don't think that they would, but I had to warn you 'cause I know your anxiety."

Maddie: "Okay."

Billie: "Okay?"

Maddie: "I need to go to the doctor when we come back."

I looked at her.

Maddie: "I don't know why, but for the past month maybe I feel like I'm being hunted by lions all the fucking time. I'm not even doing anything, I do one podcast episode a week, a YouTube video, and plan our wedding. There was a time when I was getting two hours of sleep every night because I was booked back to back. I don't know what's going on."

Billie: "What do you think the doctor's going to say?"

Maddie: "They'll probably give me anxiety meds and recommend therapy but I'll decline."

Therapy is so good, but with who Maddie is and what's going on. I think that would make her anxiety worse.

I sit by her on the floor, my back resting against her vanity.

Maddie: "I'll have my assistant make a doctor's appointment while we're in Italy."

Billie: "I think we should dress in all black."

Maddie: "Twinning?" She smiled.

I love making her smile.

Billie: "Twinning." I smiled back.

...

About two hours later we arrived at the airport, Maddie and I had on matching black sweatsuits, black beanies, and sunglasses. We're so incognito.

We're standing in the TSA line and Maddie's standing to the side of me and I see a group of paparazzi, I look the other way and turn Maddie to face me.

Maddie: "Really?" She asked quietly.

Billie: "Yeah." I pushed her glasses up a little bit.

I could tell she wanted to lean into me but she didn't, she put her hands in her pockets and looked down at the ground instead. I pulled her closer to me by her sleeve.

I guess even that was too much PDA because we were swarmed not even a second later.

"Maddie! Maddie! Maddie!" 20 different cameras flash.

Oh my god.

I moved her behind me.

"How long have you and Bille been back together?"

"Why did she break up with you if you were just going to get back together with her?"

"You know it was 2 days after that she posted with Jesse, how long had that been going on?"

With every question, she moved closer and closer to me until her head rested on my back.

Billie: "Really?"

"We're curious."

Billie: "Go be curious about someone else."

"Strike a nerve?"

Billie: "It's none of your fucking business, at all."

"Fans wanna know."

Billie: "They'll know on their own time, fuck outta here." I shooed them off, that didn't do anything of course.

I looked around and saw security guards, I waved them down, and that took care of them.

I turned to Maddie, she had my hoodie gripped in her fist, she was breathing heavily and her shaky hand came up to wipe a tear off her cheek.

Billie: "Shorty."

"Next!"

I look and it's our turn.

I took her hand off my hoodie and replaced it with a hand that she now had a death grip on. I emptied my pockets, took my shoes off, and did the same for Maddie.

Billie: "Can we have a second?" I asked the lady.

"Of course. Hold their stuff!" She told the lady working at the end of the conveyor belt.

We sit on the bench, she has both her hands gripped around mine. With my free hand, I reached up and took her glasses off so she would look at me.

Billie: "Look at me shorty, please." 

She looked at me and her eyes were watery.

Billie: "What can I do?"

Maddie: "Give me a second please."

I notice her trying to match my breathing, so I move closer to her and take more defined breaths.

After a few minutes, her grip loosens around my hand and she takes a big breath.

Billie: "Good?"

She nodded and we finished up at TSA, we're sitting at the gate of our plane, not wanting to go on our phones knowing what was on the other side.

Maddie had her head resting on my shoulder. My phone dinged.

Fin

Been with your lawyer for an hour discussing what we could do about the record label, and with you guys getting bombarded at the airport. You can air them out with no repercussions if you want. Or you can keep it private, up to you.

Every little detail?

Yes ma'am.

Heard you LOUD and clear.

Fin loved a message.

Billie: "You brought your camera right?"

Maddie: "Yeah, why?"

Billie: "My lawyer gave me full permission to air out the record label."

She perked up.

Maddie: "That's not your style remember?"

Billie: "It's not, but I can't do this anymore. I know what happened is fucked up, I genuinely tried to handle it the best I could and you know that. People are going to call us all types of things because they don't know the truth, would you like to film a YouTube video with me tomorrow?"

She thought for a second before she smiled.

Maddie: "I would love to." 

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thanks ily

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