Hold onto love

Embracing the shadows:

I find myself
Not wanted to let go of the past
I want to keep it in my grasp
I genuinely do not know how to let the hurt go away
And maybe I don't want the hurt to go away
I don't know I am confused
Knowing I need to let the past go
But finding myself dwelling  in the past
As I sit and ponder about how can I let this go
If my past made me who I am
How can I just let all the pain and hurt go
If it makes me who I am
My past is my current self
And if I let that go
Who would I be?