Tw: please be careful reading this
Everything is suffocating
In your mind
No where to go
No where to find
No distraction
Can escape you from your mind
The mind of chaos
Feeling never less tired
Tired from everything
Tired from hiding it
Tired from living it
Tired of acting that I'm fine
When in reality
That's not the truth
The truth is
The mind caves in
With every bad thought
Telling you
You will never get better
Who can love
You're unloveable
They only love you
When it's convenient for them
Yelling in your face
But appearing normal
With a smiling face
Telling everyone
How great life is
And how great your doing
When it's all a lie
An act from the truth
But they never leave will they
Hiding the truth is better
Than letting it out
Causing you
To lose friendship
Not being able
To understand your feelings
And pushing everyone away
Hoping they will notice
Before it happens
Hoping they will help you
Not knowing you can't help
Yourself anymore
But thinking
How can they help me
No help
no nothing
Surviving on your own
Just wishing things turn out differently
But it's done
I did that
Now I must suffering the consequences
Everything at war
With yourself
Not knowing whether to hold on
Or let yourself go
Into the depths of the mind
Knowing you won't come out
Drowning you in self doubt
It's a never ending cycle
Over and over again
Until you can't anymore
Giving up hope
Knowing you shouldn't
But can't help it
You tired for so long
Now you have nothing left
In you except for emptiness
Getting used to that emptiness
That emptiness is now your home
Never leaving
And never hurting
That emptiness can't
Leave you
Like people can
So you get used to it
And if you're not
You get yourself
Comfortable
Knowing that feeling won't leave
You
No matter how hard you try
So you make it
Be apart of you
Feeling content
With that feeling
Its over
The mind has won
