Meeki: Love Story Untold

Chapter 31

Nicki's POV

I went outside and leaned against the balcony and watched the sunset go to sleep on the abandoned, quiet beach. All I could hear was the waves crashing at each other and the sand absorbing into the water. I was home alone. I don't mind. Jeshay was with Diggy, Meek was out with his boys, my newborn baby is laying in his chair resting his beautiful eyes. I rubbed my thumb on his forehead as I see his eyes closed through his thick, long eyelashes. My son is beautiful. I was still watching the sun die into the sky, and I happen to sing a new song that I recently wrote about my past with Safaree and my present with Meek.

(Note: this is not a song Nicki wrote. It's one I wrote. Yes I write songs, and yes I sing and yes I rap. Everybody's unique in their own way.)

Breathless

Looking back at those times
That I wish I never held onto.

Screaming and crying
and yelling and fighting
I never knew what to do.

Now everything...is better.
It is now...or never.
Been fighting with it...forever.
Now I'm gasping for air and I'm breathless.

*Chorus*

All my life I've been trying be strong
I been tryna find somebody I could call mine.

Today was yesterday and it wasn't long
I don't try to and I don't wanna rewind.
Cause I'm breathlesssss,
I made it,
I'm finally in love with someone who doesn't abuse me.

It was wreck-less,
I can't forget it,
Men played with my emotions and they always would confuse me.

1st Rap (About Safaree)

Everytime.
I look back.
It's hard to forget my love for you,
Cause you know you took that.

Used for me for my money, used me for my pride,
Drinking with all your alcohol
You couldn't choose both sides.

You decided that it was okay,
You say, "You love me"
You wanna marry me and be my soul mate.

Bullshit. Yeah, that's bullshit.
You act like you in control so you can pull shit.

Hol up? You da boss of me?
After all you done when you was usin me and tossin me?
Slept wit hoes , slept wit da bitches
The only prollem was Im better in bed and I was the richest

You played me.
You betrayed me.
Would you jump up off the bridge just to save me?

Now I'm done.
Temporary and permanent.
I told you to go to hell not only to rot,
But to also serve in it.

Chorus**

2nd Rap (About Meek)

Now I'm here.
With my hubby.
Also with my kids
I love them, and i know they love me.

I birthed them, and I birthed that.
I got that bootylicious booty, I love ta work that.

Now I got my family,
They the best of me,
They know what I been through,
So they don't dare to question me.

Meek and I, it's a love story, but it's untold.

Now I'm ready to reveal it, because I know I gotta let go.

I been through so much. Remember that.

Now traveling back to hometown, Trinidad.
Born a native. I was born there.
Moved to Queens, and I grew up in the hood, and I adjusted to the worn air.

Now I'm finished.
I have to end it.
I didn't even begin,
But yall gotta comprehend it.

Now my life.
Is better than ever.
I got my man and we always be and stay together.
I got my daughter and my son and we're happily hap-py.

Don't forget this bitches, but im always your trap queen.

I finished writing the song and I finished watching the waves calm down. And I went inside and took my son with me. He and I went to be together.