That Time When I Fell Down the Stairs and Became a Jujutsu Sorcerer

Chapter 48 - G Side #5 - It'll Be Okay and Plans

Sarah lay asleep nestled in my arms with her cheek pressed against my bare chest. Despite my exhaustion, I just couldn't fall asleep. I was too wrapped up in my own thoughts. Realizing that I did truly love her was a lot, but nothing compared to the realization that all of these dreams had actually been memories. It was weighing heavily on me.

In the realm of my dreams, I had found myself exploring hyper-realistic scenarios, where different realities unfolded in vivid detail. Lives filled with unfamiliar emotions,  but under skies adorned with the same constellations—it was a captivating mix of the surreal and the ordinary. As the dreams persisted, a strange feeling of déjà vu crept in, blurring the line between wakefulness and slumber.

Whenever I woke up, the vivid memories always lingered, haunting my mind like elusive puzzle pieces. It wasn't until reality revealed its perplexing tapestry when she admitted the truth that I realized the dreams mirrored actual events in a parallel timeline. Trying to reconcile these dreamscapes with the tangible world was overwhelming—a constant dance between doubt and amazement.

Acceptance had became a balancing act, navigating between the familiar and the fantastical. My mind grappled with skepticism, trying to hold onto what it knew for sure while also acknowledging the undeniable echoes of another existence. Every moment served as a reminder of how fragile our perception can be, leading me on a journey of self-discovery through a labyrinth of thoughts.

Navigating this weird awareness presented challenges—confronting the limits of reality, questioning the very fabric of my existence. Yet, in the middle of all of it, a profound sense of wonder emerged, casting a surreal glow on the ordinary. The once-unthinkable idea of parallel timelines became an integral part of my understanding, transforming the mundane into a canvas of infinite possibilities.

I didn't want to burden her with how strange it all was, but I really needed to talk to someone about it. More than anything I really just needed to find a way to make it feel all real. The constant waking into what I now realized were new realities was making me somehow fearful that I could lose what I had.

I'd finally made sense of why she'd run from me. Having her in my arms again made me realize how hard it must have been for her who had always felt this way and had to keep losing me. It was easier for her to hurt me by avoiding me than to hurt herself and have to lose everything again.

Pulling her closer, I held on tight. As hard as it was to admit, I was afraid. I had never been afraid. Literally never. Even when Toji took me down, I had really only been shocked and angry that he did it. This was actually fear– dread even.

What if she had to leave early? What if something happened to her? Would I live on without her? The way she talked about it made it sound like that was the case. I don't know if my heart could take it if she was gone again, and this time for good.

Love was turning out to be something much more than I'd ever anticipated.

“So if I'm understanding this correctly, you're keeping things from me to make sure they happen and don't mess up the loop? Why? Don't you think I can handle it?”

I blinked my eyes open, hearing her voice from the living room. I hadn't even realized I'd fallen asleep. I didn't hear an answer back before she spoke again.

“It's something that really was hard hitting, right? So that means you're someone important to me.”

She must have been talking to the skeleton again. I didn't care for that guy. I just didn't trust him at all and I didn't like the way he looked at her. Not that he had eyes or anything but I could tell in how he stood up straighter or lingered on her. He had feelings for her for sure.