Always and Forever (COMPLETED)

Chapter 33

If I will be honest, I kinda feel bad that I ran away from my family and friends. But I don't regret my decision, not even a bit. I know they're all worried about me, but there's a part of me that is thankful that I did what I did. I also should feel bad that my boyfriend suddenly broke up with me, but I don't. I easily accepted our breakup and I'm so fucking guilty.

Napatitig ako sa mahimbing na natutulog na si Olivia sa tabi ko. I was afraid earlier that she would leave me here, that's why I stayed awake. She said she will just take a nap. Ngunit pagkahiga niya palang sa kama kanina ay mabilis na siyang nakatulog. Halos dalawang oras na ang lumipas nang makatulog siya. Siguro ay napagod siya ng sobra sa byahe.

Kanina ko pa sinusubukang matulog pero hindi ko magawa. Siguro ay dahil na din nakatulog ako sa byahe namin kanina. I smiled when Olivia scrunched her nose. Mukhang hindi maganda ang panaginip niya.

When I first met her, she gave the impression that she can't be trusted. But despite her lies and secrets, I still can't help trust her. I don't know if it's because of her flowery words or because I can feel that she's actually a good person. She cares for her friends and the two kids. I also saw the pain in her eyes when Val almost died. She's not selfish, and I think she values other people more than herself. I don't know why I want that to. I want her to care for me, just like how she cares for the people she loves.

One more thing is that, I couldn't believe she actually trusted me. She did not say that directly, but here she is, sleeping soundly beside me. Usually if you feel threatened and unsafe, you will not trust the people around you.

Nagtagal ang titig ko sa kanya. Hindi ko maiwasang mapansin na napakaamo ng kanyang mukha. No one would think that she's a head ripping serial killer. Damn, she's also gorgeous. I always wondered why that Quinn fell for her, even Val. I mean, she's gorgeous. There's no denying that. She's still a serial killer, and only an idiot will fall for that kind of person. But now that I know a few things about her... her personality and some of her good traits, I understand why.

I want to get to know her more. I don't know why, but that's what I feel. I'm so afraid of what will happen if these feelings continue, but I can't stop myself. I don't want to.

Ilang minuto ang lumipas at hindi pa rin ako makatulog. Bored, I've decided to draw. Kinuha ko ang papel at ballpen niyang nakapatong ngayon sa bedside table. Sumandal ako sa headboard ng kama at nagsimulang iguhit ang natutulog na si Olivia. Hindi ko na matandaan kung kailan ko huling beses ginawa ito. I love drawing and painting. That's something I got from dad. But I can't do it because I've been so busy for the last few years. I have friends now, unlike before that I'm only surrounded by my family.

I don't know how many minutes or hours passed. I finished the sketch, and it turned out good. I smiled. This feels so good. I missed drawing.

"Why are you still awake?"

Napatingin ako kay Olivia nang bigla siyang magsalita. Mapupungay ang kanyang mga mata habang nakatingin ng seryoso sa akin. Halatang inaantok pa siya.

"I can't sleep." sagot ko at muling ipinatong ang notebook at ballpen niya sa mesa.

I was startled when she suddenly grabbed my arm, and I almost fell on top of her. Mabuti nalang ay nabalanse ko ang sarili ko. Mas lalo akong nagulat nang ipulupot niya ang kanyang mga braso sa akin.

"Sleep, Kaye." malambing na bulong niya bago muling pumikit.

Napalunok ako dahil sobrang lapit ng mukha namin sa isa't isa. My heart started to race again. I'm used to sleeping in one bed with other people because of my friends, but not like this. I feel so fucking nervous.

Damn, Olivia Morgan.

What are you doing to me?

I tried to calm myself and I easily did. It's been so long since I felt this kind of security. I feel so safe in her arms and I feel like nothing can harm me. She really is something.