Heart wants what it wants [Completed ✅] [ JJK × Reader ]

Heart Bells. Bells of Love.

She touched his arm and his heart went haywire. He could see her looking at him and his heart beats elevated. He smiled wanting to look at her more and more. Wanting to adore her more and more, but suddenly.....she stood up and started taking steps away. He wanted to call her, he wanted to stop her from going away but he wasn't able to move a muscle as if he was tied, his eyes started getting wet and he screamed telling her to not go away.
Stop ! Hey stop ! Please ! Don't leave me !
Stop !
But she kept going away and farther away.....
Stop ! Please stop !
STOPPP !!!!!!!!!!
He whisper yelled and opened eyes, breathing a little heavily. Heart was racing.
He blankly stared at the ceiling before reality started dawning on him. It was a dream. But it felt so real. He wiped the cold sweat that had formed on his forehead, and sat slowly, talking a jug from side table and pouring himself a glass of water to quench his thirst.
Putting the glass back he leaned on headboard and exhaled a little shakily. Why did that dream feel so real...... It was the exact same thing that happened today. She walked away from him and he couldn't find her again.
He could feel a subtle ache in his heart like his heart was hurt that she left him. But it was another question mark yet again. Why was he hurt just because she left him, when she wasn't with him in first place ? When he didn't even know her ? He put his hands on face and rubbed his face.
Jungkook:"What is happening to me ? Who is she ? Why can't I get her out of my mind ? Why I feel like I need to find her ? Why am I suddenly feeling like I can't be without her ? Why do I suddenly feel like I am nothing without her ? Why I feel so bizarre ? Why am I feeling like she's my everythi-"
He was whispering his thought out aloud, face still buried in hands but stopped midway his words. When a flash of something halted him.
"That person who enters your life out of nowhere and becomes your everything."
He had read that exact line, somewhere. But where ?
Didn't it resemble to the situation that was happening to him.
"Why does he feel like she's his everything and he can't be without her ?"
"The person who enters your life out of nowhere and becomes your everything."
Those were a match. But what was the exact context of this line, why was it written like that and where. She was unknown to him, he didn't even know she existed before that particular incident and suddenly she became inevitable for him that he couldn't take a single breath without having her thoughts. Wasn't this strange ? And what was more strange....... That he actually liked her thoughts no he loved her thoughts, her face that appeared on his mind and her eyes that started staring into his soul as soon as he closed his eyes. He couldn't even understand himself at that point. There was a sudden 360 degree turn in his life and he couldn't find out why.
A little groan escaped his lips at the sudden confusion and situation. Stepping out of bed he opened the side drawer and took out a packet of c!gar€ttes going to stand in the balcony.
Lighting the c!gar he placed in his mouth and sucked in before leaving a puff of smoke.
He looked at the smoke dispersing in air but his heart skipped a beat when that smoke started morphing into her face, exactly her face, every detail of her face. Those almond orbs. He kept looking at it with blank face till it vanished.
"The person who enters your life out of nowhere and becomes your everything. An untouched and unexpected feeling that takes away your conscious and possesses you."
Another blurred line got cleared in his mind. He definitely read that. Where......did he..........
Sighing he threw the c!gar in trash bin and made his way out towards his library.
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Hands were stuffed in pockets of trouser while loose t shirt was hanging on his buff body. He was walking along the shelves, eyeing his collection of poetry books and pamphlets, trying to remember where, where did he read that sentence.
He loved poetry, that was how he spent his leisure time. Enjoying quotes and sonets. About the genre, all types. He read poems and sonets on every topic including romance and love.
Yes, he was a workaholic, he was cold, he was dry and he was boring. But there was one thing that no one knew about him, except himself. He was "hopeless romantic."
He had spent almost all his life very close to his grandma, until she passed away two years ago and she was a romantic poetess. She used to read him the sonnets of romance. She used to narrate him the miracles of love since he was a child.
That grew a desire in him, to have that true love. As a child he dreamed that he'll get his bride when he grows up, he'll love her and they will live that fairytale life of love, his precious grandma used to narrate him. That feeling eventually was engraved within his soul.
In his 24 years of existence he kept his heart and body, pure. His mind and soul, pristine. His eyes for that one person. For that one person, his person. His better half who'll complete him. The one with whom he'll live a fairytale life.
He halted in front of the shelf and picked up a book. A book where he noted the quotes of his grandma, he liked. The quotes of love.
Turning the pages he stopped at a page and his eyes traced the words.
"You don't find love, love finds you."
This was the line he noted when he was 7.
A memory flashed on his mind.
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Flashback
Jungkook:"It's so beautiful grandma, how do you find so beautiful words to capture the feelings."
The old lady smiled, and put her wrinkled hand on his fluffy cheek, caressing it.
Grandma:"These words come naturally sweetheart, when you understand what love is."
He tilted his head innocently.
Jungkook:"And how can I understand love. How will I understand it ?"
Another enchanted smile crept up on her lips.
Grandma:"You don't find love, love finds you."
His doe eyes sparkled.
Grandma:"You just have to wait for that one person, whose existence will make you realize what love is."
A pout appeared on his pink lips.
Jungkook:"How long I have to wait ?"
She snickered and ruffled his fluffy hair.
Grandma:"As long as destiny wants you to. You will know the moment your wait will end, and that acutish and incredible feeling you'll have will be sign of that beautiful moment."
He blinked, amazed by the idea.
Jungkook (shifting excitedly on his place):"Just like you wrote, "And the bells rang in my ear for me to know, my love, thee love, the moment had arrived."
Her smile deepened at the the exact words that came out of his mouth. He sure was an intelligent kid.
Grandma:"Yes honey. It will ring bells and those bells will be from heart. Heart bells that will indicate that destiny decided to end your interim and send your person in your life."
He blinked, awed at the magic of love. He wondered what else love could make a person feel.
Flashback ends
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Since childhood he had that idea of deep and pristine love, and he totally loved that. As he kept growing up he found out how the outer world is d!rty and spoiled. Not everything, but definitely a lot of things. Though he started disliking the world, he kept himself away from those pretentious people since childhood.
There were a very few of friends and his parents, he didn't allow anyone else to enter in his private life. And truth be told he was waiting for that moment to arrive in his life, when he'll find his only one. His heart will give him bells. Bells of love.
He loved poetry, he even did poetry. But like said earlier no one knew that soft side of him, except for himself and his grandma.
There were a lot of people who tried to get his attention, but he pushed them away without a second thought. His pristine eyes never bothered to even glance at them.
Because he firmly believed in love, he believed in himself and he believed in "her". The one, who'll come to him and they'll complete each other. A fairytale life is awaiting for them ahead, he had a firm dedication.

His eyes again and again read that one sentence
"You don't find love, love finds you".
His heart automatically skipped a beat.
Turning over the page, he again read.
"And the bells rang in my ear for me to know, my love, thee love, the moment had arrived."
He paused, before his lips inaudibly mumbled.
"Heart bells. Bells of love."
His heart again did a backflip.
His hands desperately turned over the page.
"The feeling you look at that person, and your soul recognizes its better half. The moment your eyes meet, warmth of something incredible and forever seeps deep into you. That is the moment your wait is over."
He released a shaking breath and his eyes stuck to the page. All sorts of emotions suddenly gripped his heart and he slowly, with a little woobly legs walked over to the nearby sofa.
Sitting on it he caressed the words with his fingers and her eyes, her face again appeared in front of his eyes. This time it didn't feel confusing, rather the elevation of heartbeat at that felt surreal and......and relieving.
"Heart bells. Bells of love."
He mumbled and placed his hand on his heart, feeling it pumping on beautiful rythms. He had been waiting for that one moment all his life and when that arrived it took him time to realize that destiny finally decided to bring "her" in his life. It takes time to realize that your most amazing and surreal dream came true.
He found it at the next page.
"The person who enters your life out of nowhere and becomes your everything. An untouched and unexpected feeling that takes away your conscious and possesses you. The process of falling in love at first sight is as final as it is swift."
His soul felt nourished.
Closing eyes he leaned his head back and his lips started stretching into a soft , heartfelt smile as he kept looking at her on his mind screen. How she came in front of him for a few seconds but ended his wait of years and left a permanent seal on him.
What was he feeling, elation, ecstasy, relief, desperation,....... everything. Every single single thing that love makes you feel. That only love can make you feel.
With a joyous amazement he realized he had found "her."
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