Heart wants what it wants [Completed ✅] [ JJK × Reader ]

Love is Painful

Time skip
You came out of the restroom after changing into nightwear and saw Jungkook was setting the mattress on floor, beside bed. He was putting duvets on it when his eyes fell on you and he smiled. You just pressed your lips in a thin line and made your way towards bed. Your feet were still paining and soles were a little red. Jungkook plopped on the spring mattress and sighed but his eyes fell on your feet and he frowned, red spots on your pale feet was quite visible in black slippers, a pang was that he felt on his heart. This must be due to shoes, he bit his lower lip...you didn't even tell him that you felt uncomfortable in your heels. Suddenly he felt his own skin on fire as if he was burning from pain.....he kept looking at your feet till you were on the bed.
Getting under the covers, warmth and softness engulfed you.
Laying on the bed you looked beside you and your eyes met Jungkook's. He was staring deeply at you but you immediately broke the eye contact.
Clearing throat he broke the silence.
Jungkook:"Temperature is okay ?"
He confirmed, putting the remote of air conditioner on side.
Yn:"Yeah."
You mumbled lowly but he heard it in the silence of room.
Suddenly you were startled when he placed his arms on the bed and came near you, his face hovering above yours.
Yn:"W-what ?"
You looked at him with big eyes and he chuckled in adoration at your innocent face.
Jungkook:"Nothing."
Bending a little he placed a heartfelt kiss on your forehead.
Jungkook:"Sleep well love."
Admiring you after one more time with his amorous gaze, he retorted his muscular figure back and sat on his mattress.
You saw him putting his phone and stuffs on side table before he got under his covers as well, after turning off the lamp.
You sighed, and snuggled in blankets trying to sleep, your body was tired from everything that happened today and your mind was tired after the mess going on.

Time skip
It had been an hour since you went to sleep. He couldn't even bait an eyelid the whole time.....your presence in the same room with him had his heart beating on irregular rythms but at the same time his skin was on fire, a deep ache settling into him, image of your red, hurt feet not leaving his mind for a second. Restlessness and torment surged through his veins at the thoughts of your pain.
After waiting enough he quietly stood up, and without making any noise took out the first aid box from drawer. Carefully he sat on the bed, near your feet and very gently took off the duvet from your legs trying his best not to wake you up.
As soon as your feet came in his view, his heart twisted in agony at that redness, the thought of how much it would have pained you sliced his heart. Tiny droplets, very tiny droplets of pain accumulated in corners of his eyes and he bent down, not able to control himself he carefully placed his soft lips on your feet, k!ssing all the spots that were red while his heart throbbed hoping he could get all your pain instead of you.
After placing k!sses on your both feet he very carefully applied balm on your skin, to soothe it. Being done, he again covered you properly and stood up, absorbing your sleeping figure in his eyes wholeheartedly once again, before going to sleep.
"I'm sorry love, I'm so sorry....."
His heart whispered.
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Sitting Infront of huge glass window, he had his bulky arms wrapped around his knees while his head was placed on his knees. His eyes were swollen while his heart was clenching.
Feeling the shuffling beside him he turned his head just to find his mother sitting there. She smiled at him and he smiled back faintly. No matter how much he tried, he couldn't hide his grief from her, she was his mom afterall.
Looking ahead he stared at the glass, with blank eyes.
Baekhyun:"Today is her wedding reception."
Of course he was invited but he didn't have the courage to go.
He just couldn't.
His mouth sighed and caressed his head softly.
Baekhyun's mom:"It breaks my heart to see you in pain baekhyun-ah."
She mumbled, looking at him affectionately.
Baekhyun (dry chuckle):"What to do mom ? Why did I fall for her when I couldn't be with her ?"
She caressed his back and shifted on her place sitting comfortably.
Baekhyun's mom:"There's no reason my son, no reason. Love just happens. It doesn't need any reason."
She said slowly.
Baekhyun:"It hurts."
His voice came out feeble.
She once again sighed, her heart was hurting to see her only son like this.
Baekhyun's mom:"No matter how lucky we are we don't always get what we wish for."
There was a silence for few moments before she again spoke.
Baekhyun's mom:"When you know that the one you love, loves someone else there's only one thing you can do."
He looked at her with glint of menace covering his orbs.
Baekhyun (whisper):"what ?"
She smiled.
Baekhyun's mom:"Love her with the love that wants to see her happy, nothing else. Pray for her but keep away from her."
His eyes watered. She pulled him in her embrace and he sobbed softly.
There's nothing so beautifully genuine as a broken hearted person's love.
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There was a silence in the dining area, Jiah was playing with the food on her plate while he was staring at her. She was shifting on her place from time to time, there was that strange restlessness in her body. No one told Jiah about Jungkook's reception and Jack blocked every source that could inform him about that.
Jack:"You aren't eating."
His soft voice rang in the silence.
She looked up at him with her blank eyes and dropped the spoon.
Jiah:"I don't have an appetite."
She mumbled. It's been two weeks she was on rehabilitation and therapy, it hadn't been long since she started taking d√ugs hence she was able to recover from the addiction early but what about the pain, that was engraved in her heart for eternity.
Jack:"this is not how it works."
She gritted her teeth and stood up.
Jiah:"Don't Force Me jack and f-cking leave me alone."
She said curtly trying to push him away. It was the effect of things she was going through that made her irritable and annoyed. She wasn't in good mood. His aunt who was her therapist already warned him about her mood swings.
He stood up and sighed.
Jack:"Fine, I won't force you. You want to do something else ?"
She furrowed her brows.
Jiah:"Nothing. Just leave me alone."
He smiled with a shrug.
Jack:"I won't do that."
Staring at this stubborn face for a few seconds she stormed out towards balcony and stood there, inhaling few deep breaths she tried to ease herself and leaned forward on the railing.
Jack followed her. It was silence for a few minutes before he quietly walked over to her and leaned on the railing as well.
Jack:"You know.....loss after love is like a scab. It will never heal if you continue to pick at it."
She looked at him before a faint smile made its way to her lips.
Jiah:"Loss after love.....after one sided love."
She paused before looking ahead again.
Jiah:"I knew he was never mine....he found the one he was meant to be with and it was never me. Then why can't I accept it ?"
Her voice reflected the pain her heart was going through.
Jack kept staring at her side profile.
Jack:"Sometimes we've to do things we never thought we would ever do. You have to live for yourself jiah, for us, you have to move on from him."
Jiah:"The hardest thing in this world is seeing someone you love, loving someone else."
Misery dripped through her voice.
Jiah:"You'd never understand that."
She looked at him after hearting his chuckle, the chuckle without humor.
Jack:"I wouldn't understand it ?"
She blinked but the emotions she saw in his eyes perplexed her.
Jack:"I understand it jiah, I understand every bit of it."
Jiah:"You.......have someone ?"
He smiled.
Jack:"Technically no....but my heart is taken by someone I can't call my own."
She blinked, dazed. He was going through the same but she never knew the miseries of his friend ?
Shaking head slightly she stared at the dark sky. Dark and grim like her life.
Jiah:"I can't forget him..... impossible."
Sha stated, impassively.
Jack:"forget him ?.... Don't.... don't do that.... I know you can't do that.......just accept that he has nothing to do with you, he never had...."
He paused before continuing.
Jack:"Just......start living for yourself...for me....for Irene....for those who love you.....and accept the reality."
Her eyes moistened with the pain that seeped deep into her.
Jiah:"Please jiah. I can't see you like this."
He was in excurciation to see the woman he loves like this.
She sniffed and placed her head on his shoulder. He exhaled quietly and softly caressed her head, his eyes admired her with love that he held for her.
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