Heart wants what it wants [Completed ✅] [ JJK × Reader ]

Distress- 1

Running on the treadmill, the sweat dripped through his well toned body but he wasn't stopping. He was jogging as fast as humanely possible. His red eyes were staring ahead at an anonymous point in air.
He couldn't even close his eyes the whole night. He was trying to suppress his inner worry by running fast, but honestly nothing really worked.
Jungkook was actually so distressed and just didn't feel well.....that nightmare haunted him badly. He could still the suffocation in his chest due to that dream. No matter how much he tried, he wasn't able to shrug those thoughts away, those uninvited horrible thoughts lingered in his mind making him stressed. Just a mere thought of you leaving him could do this to him, he wouldn't be able to breath if you-
Jungkook:"No, no ! It won't happen !"
He mumbled in between his hard breaths, still running. He had no idea why suddenly he got that horrific dream.
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Doorbell rang for the second time and his face contorted before he tiredly opened his eyes, releasing a heavy sigh he ruffled his hair after realizing everything that happened last night, and he had fallen asleep in living room.
Glancing once at closed door of Jiah's room he stood up and went to check who rang the bell. A sweeper was there, who was collecting trash of building. Getting rid of trash bags, and locking the door he again slumped on the couch. This time his eyes were fixed on the door of Jiah's room.
Exhaling deeply, he bit his lower lip. Was she still asleep ? He had to check on her, he was restless after last night. Gulping he stood up and finally gathered courage. She won't break off their friendship, she can't do that right.
It would be better to make coffee for her, first thing she needs in morning is coffee, thus he walked into the kitchen.
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You were coming down the stairs when you noticed him standing there, Infront of your portrait with his hands in his pants pocket, being all ready for office. He was statued on the spot, his gaze not leaving your picture for a single second.
Yn:"I'm ready."
You informed, standing behind him.
He snapped back at your voice and instantly turned around, facing you. He smiled but redness of his eyes, and those clear expressions on his face showed how disturbed he was. He was unusually quiet during breakfast too. You noticed it but didn't say anything.
Jungkook:"Oh you're ready."
He mumbled. Stepping closer to you he softly held your delicate hand taking it towards his lips. Placing soft kisses on your palm he deeply inhaled on your skin.
Parting a little away, he looked at you.
Jungkook:"Can't you take a day off love ? I want to stay with you please."
This was the nth time since this morning he asked the same thing. Sighing you shook your head.
Yn:"I can't Jungkook. I have presentation today."
He gulped and nodded.
Jungkook:"Everything will be okay."
His mind tried to console his heart. Putting those thoughts away he exhaled quietly.
Smiling affectionately he placed a tender kiss on your wedding ring finger, and held your hand, intermingling his long fingers with your fragile ones.
Jungkook:"Let's go then."
You hummed softly.
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You unclipped your seatbelt and were about to step out of car when his voice stopped you.
Jungkook:"Love."
You looked at him inquisitively. He was looking at you with a deep, infinitely deep ocean of love in his eyes.
Instead of saying anything, he softly pulled you in his embrace. His arms clasped you into him tightly and he snuggled his face in your hair. His grasp around you starting getting tighter with every passing moment. It was as if he didn't want you to move even slightly away from himself.
Taking deep breaths of your fragrance, as if to give strength to his heart.
Jungkook:"Take care, I'll come to pick you up hmm ?"
He mumbled in your hair and you nodded slightly.
Yn:"Hmm."
Instead of loosening his grip around you, he tightened his hold around you, squeezing you into him. You were getting confused by his sudden behavior, it was also getting late the class was about to start.
Yn:"Jungkook ! I'm getting late."
You called him lowly.
He inhaled another deep puff, and finally removed his arms from around you. It took everything in him, to part away from you but he did.
Jungkook (tucking hair strand behind your ear):"Tell me as soon as you're free okay ?"
You once again nodded slowly and finally stepped out of the car.
He kept looking at you till you were out of his sight, and a few minutes later drove off, after exhaling heavily.
His security cars followed him instantly, while two bodyguards stood outside the university as usual, for your protection.
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A knock was heard on the door. She knew who it was.
Jiah(laying under blankets):"Come in."
He steeped in with a cup of coffee in his hands and smiled. She smiled back faintly and honestly her smile did give him courage, an instant relief to his heart. She didn't seem angry.
Jack(placing cup on side table):"Good morning."
Jiah(looking at him constantly):"Good morning. Looks like you didn't sleep well."
He sighed with a shrug and slipped his hands in the trousers' pockets.
Jack:"Just dozed off in living room."
Jiah(sitting up):"Hmm."
Jack(noticing how her eyes were red and swollen):"I will go and get fresh."
He said and turned around but stopped when she held his wrist softly.
Jiah:"Jack."
He looked at his wrist that was in her grip and then at her.
It looked like she wanted to say something.
Jack:"What is it ?"
He asked softly. They stared in each other's eyes for some moments.
Jiah:"Will I be... selfish if I ask you to help me love myself ?"
Her words came out in whisper and he felt his heart stopping, before opening his mouth to say something but nothing came out. She was staring directly in his eyes, and her eyes were now glistening. For some moments he kept look at her, till her words sank in and his brain processed the meaning of her sudden words.
Jiah:"And if I'll be selfish.....is it too bad to be selfish sometimes ?"
He blinked not believing if it was actually happening, she was actually saying it ? And when he realized it was the reality his heart jumped in sudden emotions that invaded his senses.
Jack:"Jiah-"
He wanted to say something but the lump in his throat didn't let him.
Jiah:"Will you think that I'm using you if I say that I want you to love me....and to make me love you back."
Her voice cracked and he inhaled deeply to gain control of his thumping heart. Taking a seat beside her, he softly grabbed her hand in his big one.
Jack:"No."
He whispered looking at her with nothing but love in his eyes.
She blinked and a tear slipped down her eye.
He daintily wiped her cheek before caressing her skin with his thumb.
Jack:"You won't be selfish for asking me to love you, neither will I think that you're using me."
He said softly and patted her head, a small but genuine, smile appeared on his handsome face.
Jack:"Instead...you'll be kind enough for giving  me the chance to shower you with my love, when I thought that I had lost all chances of being with you."
Sincerity with joy dripped through his tone and she couldn't help but smile slightly. She placed her hand over his hand, that was on her cheek.
Jiah:"I want to....move on jack. I want to....start new."
Those were her words or waves of relief that washed over him he couldn't decide that. His smile deepened and he leaned closer, joining his forehead with Jiah's.
Jack (whispering):"Let's start new... together. Thank you for giving me chance."
She closed her eyes, finding a strange peace overcoming her senses after a very long span of time. Something in her just set right like telling her that she had made the right decision, probably the best decision of her life.
Wrapping her petite arms around his torso she hugged him and stuffed her face in his chest, while he instantly clasped his strong arms around her pulling her more into himself, tightly enveloping her small figure in his protective embrace. His one hand kept caressing her back while he buried his nose in her hair and closed his eyes to relish the most beautiful moment of his life.
Jack:"You're serious right ?"
He murmured still not completely believing that it was was really happening. Jiah nodded her head, still in his chest and he sighed in elation before kissing her head.
To say that he was happy would be an understatement, his inner self was jumping from undescribable elation.
His dream, that he thought would never be fulfilled was turning into reality and he couldn't be more thankful for that.
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