Heart wants what it wants [Completed ✅] [ JJK × Reader ]

Her beauty dulled the stars

Walking along the roof kissing book shelves you kept reading the titles of books and to your surprise most of them were related to poetry. Soft sound of your steps echoed in the silent room. Your gaze admired the built of library that had both ancient and modern architectural taste. You were looking around the huge house that's when you stumbled upon this library and it caught your attention. You wanted to spend some time here. Halting Infront of the table you eyed the files neatly arranged on it and that's when your eyes caught a diary. You observed it and bit your lower lip. Did it belong to him ? You thought silently before grazing your fingers over its cover but you didn't feel it appropriate to open someone's diary without permission. Soon after a paper caught your attention that was lying under the paperweight.
You couldn't stop yourself from taking it in your hands and your lips softly read what was written on it.
"She.
Her smile.
Her eyes.
Her voice.
Her laugh.
Her warmth.
Her existence.
She. Yn. My yn."
You paused and gulped. It was evident who wrote it. Jungkook did.
Your gaze slipped towards the words written down and you silently recited those.
"Her beauty dulled the stars;
As if to beg heavens,
To crumple up the sky and straighten again."
You blinked and couldn't stop your heart from accepting he was really good in poetry.
All this while you were unaware of someone's eyes on you. Leaning against the door he smiled affectionately absorbing you in his fond gaze, the warmth seeped deep into him at your sight.
Today, he got free from office early and drove back home. Asked from servants your whereabouts and made his way to library after knowing that you were there. The way your petal lips silently moved while uttering those words, he felt his heart beat elevating and dropping with every movement your lips did.
Putting the paper back at its place you walked over to another shelf that had big fat books of Shakespeare. Was he really so interested in poetry you wondered. Stopping near a specific book, "In the winds of love" you touched it and caressed the words engraved on its cover. The title had really caught your attention.
But your whole self statued at the voice that came from behind you.
Jungkook:"It's my favorite one. In the winds of love, third edition."
He spoke fondly and made his way to you. You quietly turned a little towards him and looked at him silently. He came back early today, you thought.
Stopping just Infront of you he smiled. The smile that was breathtaking undoubtedly. You pressed your lips in a thin line and gazed at him for a moment before looking away. He took a step closer and you felt his warmth enveloping your petite figure.
Jungkook:"Did you like the library ?"
He asked softly and you looked at him before nodding slightly.
Yn:"It's Wonderful. And peaceful."
He chuckled and his big hand came in contact with your cheek, his knuckles caressing your soft skin affectionately.
Jungkook:"I used to find peace here too. But-"
He paused and leaned towards your face, your scent hit his nostrils intoxicating him in a way he never imagined he was able to feel.
You looked in his eyes that were staring back at you, and the colors of emotions in those doe eyes left you speechless for a moment. His stare was intense with the feelings that were too much to comprehend, just too much, and so extraordinary.
Jungkook:"But that was before I found you."
He whispered huskily and his hot breath hit your skin making your breath hitch.
Jungkook:"Now I find peace wherever you are. I find peace in you."
You looked away from him but clenched your shirt in your fist when you felt his other hand making way to your cheek. He cupped your soft face and stared at you for a few moments before planting his hot lips on your small forehead. Your eyes got squeezed shut that moment. He inhaled deeply at your skin as if your scent was reviving him back to life, his lips touched your skin as if you were made to be worshipped by him. You slowly opened your eyes and saw him up close, with his closed eyes, totally lost, as if he didn't even know what was happening around him anymore, as if he had lost himself in you. But what made you breath heavy was the sound of his heart vibrating violently in his chest. It was drumming against his ribcage so loudly that you were baffled for a moment, was he even alright ?
It seemed as if he didn't have any plan of pulling away hence you called him lowly.
Yn:"Jungkook !"
His name came out as a mere whisper from your mouth and it made him feel dizzy, oh how heavenly good his name sounded from you. He inhaled a very very deep breath of your scent.
You gulped not knowing what to do. Mustering up all your courage you finally uttered a little loudly.
Yn:"Jungkook !"
He was snapped back and opened his eyes before reluctantly pulling his lips away from your forehead, his eyes looked at you making you look down.
His smitten heart was once again swelled up with never ending admiration for you.
Jungkook:"My beautiful angel."
He mumbled with love dripping through his tone, and his thumb caressed your cheek softly.
You couldn't look at him and your heart involuntarily felt a little odd at that moment. What did you just feel ? You pondered for a moment before shrugging that thought away and gulped before speaking.
Yn:"I-"
You wanted to say something but words were struck in your throat.
He was still so close to you.
Jungkook:"Do you feel it ?"
He asked in his deep voice, before grabbing your tender hand and placing it on his chest, right above his thundering heart.
You could feel how insanely his heart was pulsating under your palm. Your gaze was stuck on your hand that was placed on his chest.
Grabbing your chin softly he made you look up at him, and you stared in his eyes that were full of so many unspoken emotions.
Jungkook:"It's beating for you. It's beating because of you. Just you."
He rasped and you felt a knot forming in your stomach every time his breath hit your skin. Those were strange, foreign feelings that you couldn't quite name. It was the first time you had ever felt something like this.
His fond gaze lingered on your every feature, coming back to stare in your almond orbs. He looked at you as if he would s@crifice himself for you in a snap of a finger, and he really would do that. He rested his other hand on the shelf right beside your head and smiled fondly. The smile that was reserved for you and only you. He was reserved for solely you.
Jungkook:"I have no control over it. You own it yn."
He whispered making you tighten your fist on the fabric of your shirt and your eyes kept staring back in his dark orbs, that were full of nothing but passion, passion for you.
Jungkook:"You own it. This heart and this man."
Your breath hitched at the insanity his eyes displayed. He was speaking truth. You knew it. Your unconscious knew it but your conscious wasn't able to accept the fact. You remained mum and your hand on his chest curled into a fist, crumbling his shirt in your hold.
Jungkook:"What I feel for you. You have no idea."
He purred sincerely before his hand came in contact with your waist and he wrapped his bulky arm around your petite back. Surprisingly you felt an unknown warmth wrapping around you and he stepped closer, pulling you gently in his chest. Your face was stuffed in his hard chest and his arm tightened around you, while his other hand rested on the back of your head.
He leaned towards your ear and that closeness made him feel weak and strong all at once. Your soft skin brushing against his, your scent invading his senses, your warmth engulfing him in euphoria. He could feel his legs getting lifeless and knees weak. He could vividly feel his mind dizzy at your fragrance, your enchanting fragrance that captured his senses so effortlessly. Your closeness, your warmth drove him insane.
Jungkook:"You can never know. No matter how much I tell you. It won't be enough."
He whispered in your ear with his deep voice that fastened your heartbeat for some reason you weren't aware of.
Jungkook:"No words are enough. No words. What I feel for you is beyond words. Far beyond words."
He uttered genuinely and you closed your eyes involuntarily at the feeling. You weren't able to understand what was happening. You were under the spell of the moment, that was making you feel things you had never felt before.
Jungkook:"It's when I feel you,
                    Look at you, or think about you,
                    And I find myself
                    No longer be able to breathe;
                    You know it's a wonder of destiny,
                    Because the only thing,
                    I need to inhale is you."
He purred those words with depth of his soul right beside your ear before leaning into you more and dipping his face in crook of your neck, inhaling you deeply, making himself filled with the feeling that shuddered his soul and palpitated his veins in bliss that was out of this world.
You felt lost with closed eyes, you had no idea what you were feeling and why you were feeling this.
His both arms wrapped around you and he englufed your fragile figure in his bulky one, you didn't know what to do when you felt yourself squished against him. You were still, frozen. Your mind went blank for a moment. You could still vividly feel strong and fast thumping of Jungkook's heart against your chest.
He was loosing his senses in your intoxicating warmth that sent the shivers of ecstasy thought his veins.
Jungkook:"Love."
He mumbled, dazed.
His nose caressed your smooth skin of neck and your heart dropped at that feeling. You squeezed your close eyes.
Jungkook:"Please don't be away from me. I'll not be able to take it. I really won't."
He muttered with his soul and your breath hitched at the madness that his voice reflected. Why was he like that, so insane and just utterly insane. You would never be able to understand. He was right, you would never be able to understand his feelings for yourself, no one will ever be able to imagine the depth of those emotions that were engraved in his soul for you.
Yn:"I'll have to leave you Jungkook." You thought.
Suddenly, you started feeling bizarre. Your breaths went a little hard and you couldn't take this overwhelming feeling anymore.
Yn:"J-Jungkook."
You mumbled.
He hummed, not in his senses snuggling even deeper in your neck.
Yn:"Jungkook, Jungkook, leave me please."
You called him a little loud this time and he was snapped back to senses. His closed eyes got open.
Yn:"L-leave please."
He instantly pulled away, although it took everything in him to get away from you but he did because you told to do so.
Parting away his veiny hands cupped your cheeks tenderly as he worriedly roamed his gaze on your face.
Jungkook:"Are you okay ?"
You released a quiet deep breath and nodded, gulping the lump in your throat.
Jungkook:"I-i'm sorry, I made you uncomfortable ? I'm sorry love, I won't do that again, I'm seriously sorry-"
Yn:"I'm fine."
You softly cut him off.
He looked at you with anxiousness. His mind scolded his heart for being so carried away with emotions, but it wasn't his fault as well, he held no control over himself whenever you were around, your single glance was able to make him surrender his entire self so effortlessly.
Jungkook:"I was just-"
Yn:"I-It's okay."
You whispered looking away and released another deep quiet breath.
His thumb caressed your cheek softly and he once again placed a delicate k!ss on your forehead, this time not for too long.
Jungkook:"I'm sorry."
You didn't say anything..... and nodded still not looking at him.
Yn:"I-I think I should be going."
You gently moved away from him and took steps towards the door but his voice once again halted you.
Jungkook:"Love."
You stopped, but didn't turn around.
Jungkook:"That diary. You can read it. Anytime you want."
This time you looked at him over your shoulder and he smiled, the smile that deepened when your eyes met his. His uncontrollable gaze fixed on you.
Jungkook:"Don't hesitate to do anything you want. I am yours, so is everything that belongs to me. Yours, all yours."
He said with the fondness evident in his voice. You pressed your lips in a thin line and walked away without responding.
He kept looking at the door from where you left and then looked down with a huge grin decorating his features, brushing his fingers through his hair he breathed deeply  but again broke into a warm smile. Heat crawled up to his neck and ears when his mind reminded him how close he was to you.
Jungkook:"Gosh yn."
He rasped before closing his eyes, your scent still lingered around him.
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