Heart wants what it wants [Completed ✅] [ JJK × Reader ]

You have hurt me, Jungkook

You were sitting on the couch at terrace. You had come here after dinner while Jungkook was in his study, he had some work to do. Cold breeze caressed your soft skin but it felt good. You liked feeling cold air. Your silky hair flew with the wind and you fixed the woolen shawl around you. You exhaled and smoke escaped your mouth. You looked back at the shuffling sound and saw Jungkook coming into the terrace with a mug of hot coffee. You again looked ahead.
He came and brought the mug Infront of you.
Jungkook:"Coffee."
You muttered a small thanks and took it from him.
He smiled and took a seat on the other side of  couch, sipping on his own hot drink, and turned his direction a little to face you.
Jungkook:"Cold breeze, feels so fresh. I like going for a walk in cold weather since childhood."
He tried to initiate the conversation.
Yn:"hmm."
You just hummed softly. He felt peace residing within every corner of his soul. He had his whole world beside him, what else could he want ? Nothing . The love for you was flowing in his veins like bl*ood. You were engraved in him like soul. His every fiber longed for you, his every cell belonged to you.
He looked at you just for his heart to skip many beats. Your soft skin had become cherry red because of cold. You looked so ethereal, as if one touch could taint you. So pristine.
Jungkook:"How was your day ?"
You bit inside of your cheek and looked and the mug in your hands.
Yn:"I had nothing to do."
Jungkook:"I see you were bored. When is your university staring ?"
Yn:"a week later."
Jungkook:"You can come to the office with me if you want or even better I can stay at home for a week to accompany you."
Yn:"no. It's okay."
You instantly replied making him chuckle.
Jungkook:"You don't want me to stay ?"
He was teasing you......he knew you were not interested in spending time with him and he totally understood that.
Yn:"I...I have my art supplies now. I'll be spending time on art from tomorrow."
You explained quickly making him smile warmly.
Jungkook:"Will you draw me ?"
You looked at him for a few seconds. Even in this casual hoodie with dishevelled hair, he looked too much charming that caused you to steal the gaze away from him.
Yn:"No."
You muttered lowly making him chuckle at your adorable refusal.
Jungkook:"I wish I was good at art. I would've drawn your countless paintings."
He stated genuinely making you press your lips in a thin line.
Placing his mug on the side table he scooted a little closer to you and carefully fixed your flying hair, before holding your hand into his and his thumb caressed your wedding band while his doe eyes affectionately gazed at the ring.
You looked at him and then at the ring.
Jungkook:"Do you know I got our names craved on our wedding rings."
He said lowly. You blinked in surprise.
Yn:"I didn't know."
He showed you the craved names before slipping the ring back in finger.
Jungkook:"Beautiful right."
You didn't say anything.
He kept looking at your fragile hand in his and interlaced his strong fingers with your fragile ones.
Jungkook:"It is complete like this. We're complete together."
Euphoria dripped through his voice.
This time you looked at him strangely, a little baffled by his craziness. Why was he like this.......so insane for you.....you wondered.
He took your interlaced hands in his hoodie pocket and looked up at you with that constant beautiful smile over his lips.
His lip piercing shone in the dark.
He stared in your eyes and this time you didn't look away.
His soul shivered in ecstasy at that beautiful moment.
Jungkook:"I will love you recklessly,
                    Without just words or empty phrases,
                    I will love with the blazing truth,
                    And hopeless defiance,
                    And unapologetic beauty,
                     I will love you forever;
                    And even still when forever runs out."
He delicately touched your peachy cheeks with his fingertips that burnt in the elation at your heartwarming and heart fluttering touch.
Jungkook:"My heart is so full of you,
                   I can hardly call it my own,
                    Your almond eyes are like ocean,
                    I drown into every second,
                    Your smile robbed all of me,
                     Your soul enchanted mine,
                     So effortlessly."
You felt a shiver run down your spine by the intensity of emotions his eyes and voice displayed. You looked down and he leaned forward placing his burning lips on your cold forehead, making you close your eyes automatically. Your scent penetrated his senses making his heart shiver in ecstasy. Pulling away a few minutes later, he placed his forehead on your shoulder and his heart raced in calmness and affection.
Jungkook:"I'm so full of you, I'm hardly my own anymore."
He mumbled, lost......but came back to senses when a water drop fell on his nape. He instantly looked up but his heart dropped brut@lly when he saw that the water drop was your precious tear.
Jungkook:"Love."
Yn:"One thing I've always been afraid of....is hurting anyone."
You whispered and he wiped your cheek with his shivering hand. Your pain was giving him scourge like agony.
Jungkook:"yn"
He purred desperately.
Yn:"But you made me do that. You hurt me and made me hurt everyone."
Your lips shivered and he trembled in pain. His heart tore apart.
Jungkook (gulping the painful lump down his dry throat):"yn I am helpless in this matter. I really cannot imagine myself without you. I'm serious."
He said helplessly, what could he do....he held no control over the overflowing love his heart held for you and the never ending passion with which his soul craved for you. You sniffed and tucked your hair behind your ear.
Yn:"I want to sleep"
You said, trying to get your hand out of his grip. He looked at you with eyes that reflected pain and love, before loosening his grip on your hand. Before you could take your hand away he planted a delicate but warm kiss on your soft palm before letting you take your hand away.
You stood up and left from there, without looking back.
He looked at his hand with the red eyes, red from pain, but the sight of his wedding ring provided relief to his heart even in that situation.
Sighing, he brushed his hand through his hair and stood up as well, to go to his room and smoke while thinking about you, staring at your pictures and admiring you, before going to sleep. Because that's what he lived for ......to love you. That's what his soul, every fiber of his body craved for.....you and only you. That's where his peace resided.....in you.
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