Heart wants what it wants [Completed ✅] [ JJK × Reader ]

She left

You were gone. And he was frozen, numb. His mind was blank.
He couldn't feel himself anymore. Suddenly the pain shot through his body. The pain he felt was like a relentless storm raging within him, tearing apart every fiber of his being. The weight of ache pressed upon him, a heavy burden that was impossible to bear. He stumbled due to his wobbly legs, every ounce of strength left him. He staggered and shakily sat on the tiled floor throwing his head back on the couch.
His red eyes stared emotionlessly at the ceiling.
Jungkook:"I won't do su!c!de..... because I won't need to."
A whisper left his dry lips.
Jungkook:"I will automatically d!e.... without you."
A tear escaped from his empty eyes.
Empty eyes. Because their sparkle had vanished the moment you decided to leave him. The torment radiated thought his body like a relentless ache that was never going to subside. He gasped to breath. Every breath felt a struggle and meaningless. His chest tightnened as if a vise grip squeezed his heart, leaving him gasping for air.
He was still, frozen on his spot, not daring to move a muscle, he didn't have the strength to. He felt.....lifeless. He was...... lifeless. Without you.
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You were sitting beside your mom while your dad was sitting opposite to you. Mrs Shin caressed your head and patted your back affectionately. Her heart was at ease.
Mr Shin:"I'm happy that you're back yn."
He smiled while sipping his tea and you reciprocated the smile.
Yn:"I'm happy too dad. I missed you, our house, everything."
You said softly.
He nodded.
Mrs Shin:"I still can't believe Jungkook let you come...I was so scared imagining what he'd do because he seemed really serious when he said that he wouldn't leave you and you know he has power."
Mrs Shin thought that Jungkook will use his power to keep you with him and honestly she was afraid of it because she knew if that happens Jungkook will win, it could bring very disastrous effects for you and your family. It was still unbelievable for her how Jungkook let you leave but she was anyways thanking God that he did it.
However your smile shrunk at her words and Jungkook's voice rang in your ears.
Jungkook:"I am not letting you go. I never can."
Jungkook:"I am letting myself go. You are taking my soul with yourself love."
His devastated condition.
For some reason your heart again felt heavy.
Suddenly your dad's voice snapped you back to your senses.
Mr Shin (observing you):"Don't you want to know why I... gave him two options. And what if he chose to not let you go.....I said I wouldn't see you again. Won't you question about that ?"
You pressed your lips in a thin line, yes you obviously were startled when your dad said that he'd abondon you so easily but.....you looked at your dad and smiled.
Yn:"No."
He raised a brow.
Yn:"I trust you. I always have. I know there must be some reason behind your decision."
His heart ached by the answer. He realized how he should have trusted you the same that day instead of breaking off every relationship with you but then he sighed heavily and a small smile appeared on his wrinkled face.
Mr Shin:"Okay, now let's stop talking about him. That guy has already caused us a lot of trouble, now when he finally stepped back we shouldn't be discussing him."
Your dad looked at you, wanting agreement and you nodded with a small smile.
Mrs shin noticed how Mr Shin looked better suddenly. After finding out that his daughter didn't let him down, it was all a misunderstanding, he almost got his strength back. However, she also knew half of Mr Shin's heart was still in anxiousness, for his other daughter.
Mrs Shin:"Why don't you go and take some rest yn ?"
Mr Shin:"Ah yeah, go ahead. Have some rest. You must be tired."
He exhaled deeply.
You nodded and stood up, making your way towards your room.
Yn:"Good night mom, dad."
They replied to your greeting.
It felt good to be back in your house. Your heart felt light and lively than before, now that your father wasn't angry with you anymore.
However, a quiet corner of your heart felt......sad. but you didn't pay much attention to it.
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Servants were worried for him. It's been hours since you had left and he  hadn't moved a muscle. It was like he was glued to that spot. Tears ? Even tears weren't flowing through his eyes. He was numb. Senseless. Shattered. Blank.
Martha:"I think we should call mr park and Mr Kim."
She suggested. They were peeking at him from back side of lounge. Of course they were too afraid of his anger to go near him and ask if he was okay, what if he gets enraged ? Hence they considered it safe to call his friends, because he really didn't look in stable condition at all.
Another servant spoke up.
Servant:"She's right. We should just call his friends."
He said before going to take the telephone diary and call Jungkook's friends.
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Looking around the room you saw how it was just as you had left it. Everything was on its place. Perfect. Clean. A sigh of relief left your mouth when you felt yourself back in your room after a long time.
Robin(putting the tray on table):"I kept everything perfect, so that you'll find your room ready whenever you come back."
He said and looked at you with a smile. You mirrored his smile.
Yn:"Thank you uncle robin."
He nodded with a grin. You could see how happy he was after finding you back in the house. It warmed your heart.
Robin:"Don't forget to have soup before going to sleep. I'll be going now. Take rest. Hmm ?"
Yn:"Sure."
You politely replied and he walked out of the room, closing the door. You slowly strolled around and stopped Infront of the covered canvas. Removing the cloth you smiled after seeing the portrait you had worked hard on. Grazing the painting with your fragile fingers, you thanked God in your heart for solving everything between you and your father.
Your heart felt light. And it was good that you would be able to celebrate your dad's birthday that will be in a couple of days. You thought this year you wouldn't be able to spend your dad's birthday with him and it was hurting you but now you were in peace about that.
Exhaling you moved away from the canvas, and walked over to the wardrobe to change your clothes.
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