Heart wants what it wants [Completed ✅] [ JJK × Reader ]

Let me hear your breaths

You were in the bathtub thinking about what happened today. Luke warm water was providing warmth to your body, not to your heart. There was this constant state of distress you were going through. When Jungkook gave you option you had no idea what to do. You wanted time from him to think about everything but he didn't agree on that. He wanted you to decide then and there. In case you decline he was getting ready to call Jiah. Your mind was numb and you were freaked out at the thoughts of what'd happen if your sister gets humiliated like this or your family's reputation is tranished.
The thought of that was enough to shudder you. Seeing no other way you quietly agreed to marry him. You decided in your heart that you'd tell this to your parents as soon as possible and they'd seek for the solution. Probably they'd be distressed, a little angry but you knew they'd side by you, would they ? You hoped they would. But again you didn't know how to tell your parents that their daughter is suddenly married ? It was menacing. You were regretting doing that. No matter what you shouldn't have agreed to marry him....but again he was being so coarse. He had left you with no option....it was like you had to choose between yourself or your sister. Whom did you want to breakdown......and you chose to save your sister. One side of your heart blamed you for choosing to do this and the other side was conflicted on how to tell your parents.
Despite that, you were still so anxious about Jiah. What if she finds out that the man she loves is your husband now ? You exhaled shakily and shifted a little on your place. Sound of water splash echoed in the spacious washroom.
You brushed your fingers through the hair gently in tension And closed your eyes leaning back. Your mind was a mess. You were too engrossed in the thoughts of what to do next. Everything was complicated.
Yn:"I shouldn't have gone to meet him, none of this would have happened."
You mumbled helplessly. At least that's what you thought. A lone tear slipped down your cheek.
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He was leaning back on the couch with sparkling eyes and ecstatic smile. He decided that he'd talk to Mr shin no matter what the consequences are. He wouldn't let anyone take you away from him.
It was 8 of the night.
He finally dialled your number and restlessly waited for you to pick up.
You came out of shower and were changing when he called you.
His first call went unanswered.
He again called, you sighed and put your phone on silent mode.
On the other side he was going impatient every passing second.
He texted you as well but there was no reply.
After doing the night routine, you slipped inside cozy duvets but your phone was still vibrating. Heaving a deep breath you finally answered his call. Your mind was a little clear than before.
It was video call. He breathed in relief when you answered his call and you met with his worried gaze.
Jungkook:"yn, are you okay ?"
You pressed your lips in a thin line and nodded.
Jungkook:"Why weren't you receiving the call ?"
Yn:"I was taking bath."
You answered lowly and he exhaled deeply before rubbing his face.
Jungkook:"I'm sorry. I suddenly got worried. I'm sorry."
He apologized for his restless behavior while you kept quiet, there were many things he needed to apologize for. Did he even know what he had done to you ? He was complicating your life and you weren't liking it but.... Despite all that you didn't know how to be rude. Your personality was just like that. Soft and fragile. You didn't know how to show your anger.
Jungkook:"I was missing you. I can't wait to see you tomorrow."
He purred softly.
Tomorrow it was new year party at night. Of course all the riches of city were invited. It would be Jungkook's first time there since he had been living out of country before.
You looked at him and blinked slowly. He was so strange man. You definitely were going to talk to your parents about everything, you didn't know what else to do.
Jungkook:"Do you know I have written a few lines for you."
He said, with slightly blushed cheeks. The sight was ethereal. You looked too beautiful to be true, that low lamp light falling on you made you appear even more pristine.
Yn:"Lines ?"
He smiled.
Jungkook:"You would like to hear ?"
Yn:"I-"
Jungkook:"I shall read them for you."
All the things of love and beauty he had written since forever had always been for you, for solely you. But he was going to read a few he had written today.
Jungkook:"Until the death do us apart
                    Were the vows we made then
                    I knew then and I know now
                    That they are meant for you
                     Forever they are engraved on my heart
                     For I am always loving you."
You remained quiet listening to his deep, husky voice that was heavy with many undescribable, unspoken, true emotions, solely for you.
He stopped and looked at you. You immediately looked away, don't know why but you shyed away from his intense gaze.
The deep eyes, that had the ocean on eternal love for you.
Surprising enough, you never felt uncomfortable within his gaze and you had no idea why was that.
He raised a brow.
Jungkook:"Should I continue ?"
You cleared your throat.
Yn:"I want to sleep now."
He sighed softly and bit inside of his cheek.
Jungkook:"Yn."
He called you intently making you state at him involuntarily.
Your heart swelled with emotions. You were fatigued thinking about the havoc this day had brought into your life.
Yn:"Do you know what have you done to my life ?"
You inquired lowly. He went quiet and his heart ached. Your question was like a punch to him. He felt stinging pain in his heart. He knew he had hurt you. But he swore on his love, he'd do everything to make it up to you.
Jungkook:"I know."
Yn:"You don't."
You whispered out.
Yn:"You've turned me against my sister. My family won't be pleased. You've put me in dilemma I never thought I could get into, neither did I want to. How will they react after finding out I got married without my family and kept it secret ? How shall I even disclose this marriage to my parents ?"
He listened to you with stopped breaths and racing heart. Your every word was a pang on his heart. He gulped the painful lump down his dry throat. You were hurting and he was too.
Yn:"I didn't want to marry you."
Ouch. A stagger was dug in his heart. But he kept quiet and licked his lips, trying his very best to not show his hurt.
Jungkook:"I love you."
You breathed out shakily and your looked up to stop tears from escaping your eyes.
He made a fist of his hand that shaking terribly from pain he was feeling within his veins.
He cleared his throat and rubbed his face in an attempt to wipe his blurry vision.
Yn:"I am going to sleep."
You said, and were going to disconnect the call but he stopped you.
Jungkook:"Don't. Don't disconnect."
You frowned.
Yn:"huh ? I want to sleep."
He smiled and his gaze lingered on you with absolute affection.
Jungkook:"Sleep. But don't disconnect the call."
Yn:"But-"
Jungkook:"please."
You stopped and looked at his pleading face before sighing. He was one impossible man.
Gulping, you put the phone on side of pillow, such that it showed ceiling. He chuckled at the way you didn't want to be seen while sleeping.
Jungkook:"It's more than okay."
He said and you heard it clearly. Setting the temperature on air conditioner you laid under blankets and heard him.
Jungkook:"Good night, Mrs Jeon."
You clutched on the covers lightly after what he called you.
Yn:"G-good night."
You closed eyes and drifted into slumber almost immediately, because your mind was already so tired from all the drama that happened today.
He smiled listening attentively to your heavy breaths.
"Your every breath enlightens my soul."
He mumbled and kept listening to your every breath that gave him a sensation of fuzziness and calmness each passing second.
His eyes adorned his wedding ring with mirthful gaze.
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