Heart wants what it wants [Completed ✅] [ JJK × Reader ]

Love her and love her wild

It was raining. Winter rain. You had always enjoyed cold rains. Sitting in front of the huge glass window, you were looking at the water drops that fell on glass and then travelled down, looking so ethereal. Low sound of rain falling was pleasent to ears. Sipping on your hot chocolate you shifted a little on your place and sat comfortably, gripping the blanket around you with one hand.
Soon Jungkook joined you with a dish of baked items in his hands. Today he had that strange mood of cooking and baking throughout the day. Putting the dish on table he took seat beside you on couch, and covered his legs with duvet as well. he exhaled heavily, like he was finally done with his work and was tired now. The next moment he smiled looking at you.
Jungkook (pointing towards the dish):"At your service my lady."
You just looked at him quietly.
Shuffling through the choco cookies he finally found the one that wasn't burnt at all and had soft dough. Sighing in relief he handed you that cookie, indicating you to taste it.
Jungkook (grinning):"Taste it, I am sure this one is fine."
You finally risked to bite on it and to your surprise it was actually good.
Yn:"It's good."
Jungkook (relieved):"Hahhh ! Thank God."
You just pressed your lips in a thin line to stop your smile.
There was that silence for quite a time. Both of you were enjoying that comfortable silence, rain sounds, hot chocolate, wrapped in warm blankets, not to forget he was looking for the perfectly baked items in dish, putting them in separate plate Infront of you.
You were looking at the water drops that fell from the sky while he had passionate, intense gaze fixed on you. Admiring you in every possible way he could. Though you were quite aware of his eyes on you, you didn't bother it, not like he'd stop doing that if you say him to, and surprisingly you didn't feel a bit of uncomfortable under his gaze.....instead it felt.... natural.
Placing the empty mug on side table you snuggled under the blankets and his whipped heart thundered furiously in his chest cause of the way you looked so pure, fragile, soft and unimaginably ethereal. Your hair were open, falling on your back and few strands on your shoulder.
Jungkook:"love."
You averted your gaze towards him.
His smile deepened along with his smitten heart that skipped beats.
Jungkook:"I started loving you when I didn't even know what love is."
You remained mum.
Jungkook:"You know I have always been waiting for you."
You frowned slightly.
Yn:"Always ?"
Jungkook:"Since I was a kid."
You stared in his eyes with astonishment....what did he mean by that....since he was kid...really ? You didn't understand what he was trying to say.....he said that he fell for you the first time he saw you in mall and now he was saying that he had been waiting for you since forever.....this guy was confusing.
And oh God, he swore his heart erratically jumped inside his chest when your almond eyes stared into his doe ones, throat became dry, soul lit up with passion. He felt himself getting beautiful kind of dizzy cause of fragrance of love that surrounded him, your eyes that intoxicated him.
There was a very little distance between you two, taking his hand towards your face he very softly caressed your peachy cheeks with his knuckles and oh shoot ! A strong sense of warmth shot through him, the guy's veins palpitated in elation when your skin came in contact with his.
He felt his guts twisting in undescribable ecstasy.
It was like the time had stopped.
                                         Jungkook:
"What of the firefly,
The one I love to chase ?
The old man smiled
Love her,
He said
But leave her wild.
And the old oak tree I love to climb ?
Love her, he said, but leave her wild
And the wolf that cries to old joke moon ?
Love her, he said, but leave her wild
And the horse that loves to run with storm
Love her, he said, but leave her wild
And what of 𝒉𝒆𝒓 ?
𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕 ?
And the old man smiled,
𝒀𝒆𝒔, he said, "𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒓"
𝑩𝒖𝒕 "𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆" 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒅
and 𝑠ℎ𝑒'𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜𝑜."

He rasped and your heart involuntarily fluttered. You felt something different. Not able to stare back in his deep orbs, you looked down, your long eyelashes covered your eyes and his heartbeats dropped down before elevating with a force that caused his heart to almost leap out of his throat. His heart, that was yours, always, since always, for always.
He, every atom of his existence was solely yours, not even his own, he wasn't even his own, he definitely was aware of that. the love for you ran through his veins like blood, you were engraved in his soul.

Tucking a hair strand behind your ear he softly held your hand and his thumb caressed your skin. While his eyes kept admiring you.
Yn:"You are so interested in poetry."
The words slipped out of your mouth.
Jungkook:"Umm hmm. I am. My grandma was too."
You looked at him.
You knew that his grandma was no more, Mr and Mrs Jeon went to cemetery to pay regards to her, and Jungkook often told you as well that he had went to meet his grandma in cemetery.
Jungkook:"Will you come with me ?"
Yn:"Where ?"
Jungkook:"To cemetery. To meet my grandma."
You didn't know what to say.
Jungkook:"You know I always tell her about you. She must be pretty excited to meet you. Not now but in future.....will you come ?..only if you want to."
You kept quiet for a moment before nodding in agreement. His grandma wasn't in this world and denying to pay regards to a deceased person will be so rude.
His eyes lit up and he grinned.
Jungkook:"Thank you love."
Bending his head down slightly, he took your hand to his lips and placed a delicate kiss on back of your palm while his thumb kept caressing your wrist.
You looked away from him. He kept telling you about his grandma and the poems she wrote, for quite a time before you went back to your room to have some sleep.
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Sitting on the seashore side by side, they were quiet. Silence was comfortable. Sounds of waves splashing were calm. However, their hearts weren't in peace. Jack still had Mrs shin's words in his mind. He was thinking if it could be possible. His heart insisted to try, what if she really gives him a chance, he wouldn't need anything else in this world if that happens. He never needed anything except her.
Gulping he exhaled heavily and broke the silence between them.
Jack:"How was the session today ?"
She kept quiet for a few seconds before speaking.
Jiah:"Your aunt wants me to try to move on."
Jack:"And you ? Do you want to try.....now ?"
Her heart ached, deeply, but...maybe her mind wanted her to give it a try.
Jiah:"Maybe."
His heart skipped a beat at her answer.
Turning his head to look at her, he smiled lightly.
Jack:"That's wonderful."
Jiah:"You know jack I tried. I told your aunt too...that I tried to forget Jungkook...but it doesn't work. It just doesn't."
He didn't feel jealousy ? He did. His heart stung. But he hid it like always.
Jack:"Then, what did she say ?"
Jiah:"She said...maybe I should try a different way to move on ?"
Jack:"a different way ? And what is that ?"
This time she looked at him, their eyes met and his heart raced its pace.
Jiah:"To get involved with someone else. In other words, distract my heart from him. Maybe it'll find the reason to live and eventually give up on beating for Jungkook."
This idea wasn't too good neither too bad, maybe it could really work. At her words his heart beats fastened even more.
Jack:"And what did you decide about it ?"
Jiah:"I am still thinking."
They were quiet for some time.
Jiah:"You know she said something that made want to move on...from Jungkook."
He looked at her with inquisitive eyes.
Jiah:"She said my mom won't be happy after seeing me like that. Your aunt said I am giving my mom pain, If I want her to be happy up there....I should be happy here."
She said now looking at the sky and the stars that twinkled on it. He sighed softly and nodded.
Jack:"She was right."
Jiah:"I know I can never get over him. He'll always be in the quiet corner of my heart. But...maybe I'll try to move on from him. I think I want to move on from him.....All these years of one sided love have been so painful and mom must have been in pain too, because of me."
Jack averted his gaze towards the ocean. Those past years had been very painful for him as well...he was burning in his one sided love too but he couldn't tell this to anyone.
She was trying to move on now....why ? Because of someone reminded her of her mom....otherwise could she even think of moving on from Jungkook ? No. Never. She'd have spent all her life silently with his love in her heart, but she wouldn't do that now. Not when she realized she might be hurting her mom. She'll try to....move on.
Jiah:"You love someone too....right ?"
He suddenly got alert at her question but nodded anyways.
Jack:"I do."
Jiah:"You told her ?"
Jack:"I didn't."
His voice was low.
Jiah:"Why ?"
Jack:"She loves someone else."
Jiah:"It hurts right. It burns."
Jack:"so much."
Jiah:"What will you do now ?"
The silence fell on his face for a second before he answered.
Jack:"I'm thinking about that."
None of them spoke again. They cherished the peaceful silence and calm darkness.
She was torn between the desire to move on and overwhelming wish to hold onto her one sided love but at the end she finally decided to move on. She decided to move on for her mom, for her friends, for those who were in pain after seeing her in pain.
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