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What is "more"

Dive in deep to stories about platonic love,
Ask people and they'll say they're have bond with their friends like no other,
Yet it's always romantic love that still gets put above

"Platonic love is real" "platonic love is cool",
But yet somehow there's always "more"
What is this more? Or maybe I'm just a fool.

Maybe I am the fool, for not seeing past friendships
But if I put on a lacey white gown,
I want the wedding bands to be strung together with the bonds I crafted with my best friend.

What is this "more"?
This other person people find and simply adore
The only people I can't imagine loving,
Are the ones I had sleepovers with on the weekends,
The girl I told my deepest feelings too,
The girl who makes me laugh and smile,
Who makes me feel like me.

What could possibly be more than that,
If even, make a match?
To me nothing compares more,
Than the girl who got me through the dark. 

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I wrote this because I feel like even if allo people out there appreciate platonic love and talk about how amazing and fulfilling it is, to most of them there will always be something "more". Romantic love will still always be "more" 

And I just don't get it. I mean I don't think I ever will. And I get everyone experiences attraction on different levels so they're probably are people who feel more for romance than friendship and I think I honestly feel more for platonic love than I do for romance. I mean I've never felt romance so it's hard to compare. But I just wish people stopped addressing it like romance being "more" wasn't a universal thing.

Like instead of always saying "they're definitely more than friends/platonic lovers" just say "they definitely have romantic feelings" or maybe they're more than friends because they're a family, you could say "definitely a chosen family"

It's just mildly annoying. I guess it's more than mildly annoying. I don't know. Maybe it's because being in a fandom changed me and now I'll always know how people view not only fiction but view the world. And that's also how the writers view it and how people might view me and my future relationships.

I've been thinking about it (this part is kinda all over the place sorry) and I think I kinda actually get platonically married but also like I don't wanna take that romantic opportunity away from my best friend and I guess I don't know what's down the road and maybe I'll meet another aroace person and we could get platonically married but I don't think I wanna get platonically married like "oh it's a nice idea" I think I wanna get platonically married to my best friend. And it's so weird because like I'll go through phases where I swear she hates me but recently we've been like really close and it's been amazing.

But I don't wanna talk to her about it because that's kinda embarrassing and awkward but also like she's probably gonna want to romantically be with some guy some day.

Anyways that's all I have to say. Thanks so much for listening and I hope you all have a great day/night. Best wishes, take care 💚💜