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Late night complaining

Tonight is gonna be a long night. I can't sleep lol so I'm just gonna complain I guess bc that's all I seem to know how to do.

I can't not stress enough how much I hate the phrase "more than friends" like it physically hurts my soul. Like no. Unless it's like family/best friends I don't wanna hear it. And that actually confuses me bc like I feel like it makes me a hypocrite to be like "it's okay to say more than fitness if it's like best friends and you're trying to emphasize they're really really close besties it if it's like found family but it's not okay if its romance" like it makes sense in my head why it's okay I just don't know if I can put it into words that make sense.

But like, calling your friends family is like a badge of honor. To me that's a clear step up. From friends to found family I feel like there's a difference. Like friends are in the audience at my wedding and found family is my bridesmaids/maids of honor. (Not that I'll be getting married but that's just an example) or like friends, people I talk to at school and eat lunch with, hang out in a group with outside of school. Found family is like, I would live in an apartment with you, have sleepovers. Idk.

It just, it kills something inside of me when I hear more than friends to describe romance. I wish I could explain it better but I've talked about how much I hate this phrase so much now. I don't wanna over do it.

I don't like when there is ships within the found family group. I'm not saying no one in the found family can date, I just have realized I don't like when two people from the found family are dating each other especially if there's one or more people who are not dating anyone but they're not confirmed aro so people will constantly be acting like their incomplete.

Anyway the main reason I don't like it is because it sets the couple on this pedestal where the fans will automatically think they love each other more than the rest of the found family group or even if they don't directly say that they heavily imply that and when there's a character who isn't dating I feel bad because I don't want them to feel less valued or loved.

I don't know. I feel like I need to say more about it but I don't think there's anything else to say I just can't get these things off my mind. I really wish I wasn't romance negative. Like part of me wouldn't wish it away for anything but that is because I have a stubborn mentality I think I don't know but also like it would just be easier if I was more romance positive but I think the more I try the more I'll hate it.

Anyways. That's all I have to say for now. Thanks so much for listening and I hope you all have an amazing day/night. Best wishes, take care 💚💜