Little ramble

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Sometimes I really wish I wasn't a romance negative aroace. Like on one hand— no. I don't want to like romance. Ew. It's annoying. But on the other hand it's like— life really would be easier if I at the very least liked fictional romance.

Like it's just so complicated because I don't want to want be annoyed but I don't want to not be annoyed either maybe it's bc I'm just stubborn and want to go against the rest of the societal norm or maybe deep down I know I wouldn't be honest with myself if I said I liked fictional romance or it's almost like a principal now. It's not that I don't like certain romantic couples, it's the concept of romance I don't like so I have to hate/not like all fictional romantic ships bc it's principle in my head and I'd be like betraying platonic ships

I know you can like both but it's like I just can't allow myself to like it.

I really just don't get it.

I was never like this before I entered a fandom, saw what it was like, and discovered I was aromantic (I'm like 70% sure I knew I was ace before entering the fandom and the fandom world helped me realize I was aro too)

Before I knew I was aro but still knowing I was ace, I didn't have much of a problem with fictional romance probably bc I wasn't giving it much thought and when I was thinking about it it's bc I wanted to, not bc the fandom space was oversaturated with that ship and I saw it everywhere.

It's just, I wish I could at least tolerate fictional romance but for some reason I just can't and it's not even like I want to like it I just want to not want to be annoyed all the time.

I guess that's all I have to say right now. Thank you so much for listening and I hope you all have a lovely day/night. Take care💚💜

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