I've been trying and trying to focus on myself but it's hard I want a relationship with someone so freaking bad it's not even funny.... Ugh every time someone says just wait it makes me mad and triggers my thoughts of self harm or worse.... I battle those thoughts everyday when it comes to me feeling lonely.... Christmas is becoming my least favorite holiday now for a reason..... and I hate it hate it hate it when my friend who was on here and now isn't that much mentions her GF it's annoying but I put up with it because I have too....
I don't have any friends or anyone by my side no matter what my friend that was on here doesn't even talk to me that much anymore and she always goes to her GF for her problems and not me like friends can help too ya know!.
Friends can make you feel special too am I not enough?!!!
