today started out fine then it got kinda meh I was out shopping with my grandma and I orderd a starbucks since I felt like one and before I could go in she told me that my grandpa has Arthritis in his knee and I got anxious but I did it easily and once I got home I was in shock but then I realized its just a sore knee hes not sick or anything and hes taking meds for it so that will help the pain go away..... but I was anxious and I still am... Im again using everything as a distraction to get my mind off of it... I will still be online on wattpad updating books.. I am starting college on tuesday but im unsure of if I actually I wanna go or not.... Im deciding not since im still not mentally and physically ready yet... so I'll probably be home
and its a sunny day where I live and it doesnt really hide the fact that my grandpa is in pain because of his knee he does not need surgery if he did I would NOT be eating or enjoying anything fun or enjoyable.
so yeah thats my life right now and its pretty sucky since im still going through a friend breakup
I thought this year would be better for me emotionally but it has not been..... its not as bad as 2023 tho...... 2023 was a HORRIBLE year for me a lot of things happened that year and it was hard for me to deal with..... and now this year is turning out to be meh.
but im thankful for all my friends that I have on the internet none of you have called me weird, annoying, etc and never took your anger out on me. but most of all I wanna thank My GF weve been dating for over a month now... and she makes me feel so special everyday I love her so so much and Im so so thankful she is standing by my side no matter what.
I love you all so so much and I hope you guys have a great day/night!
