Treacherous Heart 1: Ever The Same

Pahina 36

Reign

My hands traced his jaw, marahang hinahaplos iyon pababa hanggang umakyat uli papunta sa kanyang tainga. His skin felt... so luxurious against mine. Hindi ako makapaniwala na kasama ko siya ngayon, nahahaplos at nararamdaman.

Nakabalik na kami sa tinutuluyan namin at tulad ng gusto niya ay... nakahiga na kami, magkaharap, tahimik, nakikiramdam sa isa't isa at mataman lang naghahawakan ang mga titig.

Still hearing the loud crashing of waves, my heart felt the opposite. Tahimik ito, payapa, oo... mabibigat ang hampas pero dama ko rito ang pagiging kunteto. Our silent breathing were harmonizing, everything was so comfortable that it all felt like a dream. Masyado kasi maganda ang lahat para maging totoo. At kung panaginip man ito, sana hindi na ako gisingin.

"Hindi ka ba mag-sisisi?" Mahina kong tanong, halos ibulong ko sa hangin.

His soft eyes... softened more, if that is even possible.

"Saan?"

Huminga ako ng malalim at pinilit ang sariling ngumiti.

"Dito. Sa akin. Maging totoo tayo, Tob. I... I am not a good catch. Maliban sa hindi ako Chinese, I have not accomplished anything yet. I am... technically still considered as a student. I am not being supported by my family right now. I only have myself. This is... all... of m-me. You won't gain anything from choosing me. Mahirap na nga ang daan sa pag pili sa akin... ganito pa ako."

His eyes dropped and tightly closed as if it was painful to hear those from me.

He sighed. He reached for my right hand that was touching his cheek in a very slow manner. Ang kanyang palad ay nakalapat sa likuran ng akin. Minulat niya ang mga mata niya bago nilapit ang kamay namin sa may labi niya at hinagkan ang palad ko na para bang ito lang ang gusto niyang gawin sa araw-araw.

His soft lips kissed my palm and I was sure it transcended beyond my skin... his kiss crawled inside me... to my heart.

My heart was long invaded by him but... tuwing ganito siya, parang paulit-ulit niya akong sinasakop.

"No, baby..." he painfully disagreed.

Marahan siyang pumikit sandali para damhin uli ang palad ko sa kanyang pisngi. Ulit-ulit niyang hinaplos ang kamay ko roon habang ulit-ulit din niyang binabalik sa kanyang labi para hagkan.

"I... I am everything that is wrong for you. I... am everything that they don't want... for you..."

Nabasag ang puso ko sa sariling sinabi.

Hindi ko matanggap na luging-lugi siya sa akin. I know that the way he looks at me is influenced by his love for me, kaya parang ang taas-taas ko sa paningin niya pero sa totoo lang... kung ihihilera ako katabi ang ibang mga babaeng nakapalibot sa kanya, agad makikita kung gaano siya kalugi sa akin.

He groaned with so much frustration as he pulled me closer to him. Dinantay niya ang hawak niyang kamay ko kanina sa kanyang baywang at mas hinila pa ako para mayakap. My face is now on his chest, siniksik niya ako sa kanyang bisig kaya nanuot sa akin ang mabangong amoy niya... claiming every space around me.

He hugged me like he was claiming all of me. Ang matikas niyang pangangatawan ay sinasakop ang buong katawan ko at... hindi ko akalain na magugustuhan ko ito ng ganito.

I inhaled more of his scent as if I wasn't doing that for the last couple of hours.

"You are everything that I need..." he whispered.

His throat vibrating comforted me. I never knew vibrations could calm a person...

"You are everything that I want..." he whispered again, placing light kisses on my forehead.