Heart-struck* WWE Fanfic

Part 33

"What the hell?" I pull away the phone from my ear. He sounds mad, like really mad. "What did I do now?" I ask him. "Type in Google on your phone."

"What?" I ask confused. "Just do it." He says, I put my phone on speaker and open up a window to type in Google. "Okay, now what?" I ask, "Type in Aj Lee." He says, "Umm-" he interrupts me. "Just do it."

I type in my name, and there's several news about me. About Raw, about Smackdown and about- Dean. "Do you see the third article? Can you explain what the hell does that mean?" I can feel his anger coming back. The article says, "Are Aj Lee and Dean Ambrose dating?" Then there's pictures of us two coming out he store where Dean bought the swimming suit for me. There's several pictures, and in one he's got his hand around my neck and he's whispering something in my ear but it looks like he's kissing my cheek.

I hold my breath as I read the article. "What does that mean? Huh?" He says over the phone. "I- uh-" I don't even know what to say. "You're suppose to just have a storyline with him. You're not suppose to go out with him, or hang out with him out of work."

"But I just thought that maybe I'll get closer to him that way." I say not knowing what else to say. "No. Listen Aj, I swear if you're just playing me-"

"I'm not." I whisper. "Don't think I'm stupid because I'm not. If I find out there's something going on with Dean and you I swear-" I interrupt him again, "There's nothing between us." He takes a few seconds to answer, "There better not me. Get this in your head, you're mine. You're just doing this to help me, and once I make my return I will crush Dean Ambrose." He sounds very sure of what he's saying, but I think he's got it wrong. He's not going to crush Dean, he's going to crush me. Because once he's back Dean is going to hate me. And we both know that.

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"What's wrong?" Dean asks as he puts out suitcases in his car. I should start riding the bus again since I'm not "allowed" to spend time with Dean but I can't waste my chances to be with him. Time is flying by, the day of his return is getting closer.. The day when I have to say bye to Dean is getting closer.

"Nothing." I whisper as Dean closes his back door. "You were quiet the whole breakfast, something has to be wrong." He says. I shake my head, "Nothing's wrong." He gives me a look, "I don't believe you." I look away not knowing what to say, it's like he can read my mind. Something is wrong, everything is wrong. "You can tell me anything, you know that. Right?" I nod my head as he opens the car door for me.

I get in and he buckles me up and then kneels down on the floor. "I don't know what's wrong, but whatever it is. It will be okay." He holds my hand and I squeeze it tight. "You're amazing Dean." I say, he smiles sweetly. "I try to be amazing, for you." He kisses my forehead and gets up. When he does I get a terrible urge in my chest, "Dean." I say he looks down at me. "Yes?"

"You have to stay away from me." He kneels back down confused. "What?" He says. I know what I'm doing is wrong, and even though I know this messes everything up I have to warn Dean. I can't allow him to keep falling for me, I can't allow him to keep thinking that I'm this great girl when I'm not. I'm a liar, a deceiver. I'm worse than Summer.

"Dean, Im a terrible person." I whisper, "No, Aj. Don't say that, did somebody say something to you? Was it Summer? Or Eva?" I shake my head no, "No. But I'm not as great as you think. Please don't get your hopes up, I don't want to let you down.. I don't want you to think I'm wonderful because I'm not. I make mistakes- and I don't want you to get hurt in any way. It's not worth taking a risk for me, you're too important Dean."

"What's all this about? Why are you telling me this? It's like you're saying goodbye." He says sadly. "Maybe it's better to go ahead and say goodbye." I whisper, he shakes his head no, "I don't want to say goodbye."

"I'm going to let you down, I know for a that fact." I cover my face so I won't start crying and then I feel his arms around me. "You can't leave me, if you do you'd break me. You're my weak spot, remember?" He says in my ear. I remove my hands from my face and wrap my arms around him.

After our talk Dean starts to drive, he keeps looking at me. I'm such a coward, I should've told him the truth. I had a chance to tell him, but something deep inside me tells me he would never forgive me. I've never been more scared to lose anybody. He makes me feel complete, he makes me feel important and loved. I've never felt this important before, he makes me feel like I'm worth living.

Basically all my life I've been told I'm not worth the air I breathe in, and Dean makes me feel like I'm valuable.

It's been great getting to know him, but I kind of regret it. He's going to get hurt and I'm going to be the cause.

I hate myself for doing this to him.