BL: AIMING FOR YOUR HEART

Chapter Thirty-one

CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE

Naglakad lang si Amory sa kung hanggang saan aabutin ang kaniyang mga paa– he can't think of any clear thoughts right now. His chest was heaving with heavy breathing and his fists were tightly closed. He was mad at himself and Sebastian. Why does he kept on accepting scraps from the man who don’t realize his feelings? Bakit ba kasi iniisip niya pa rin na kaya siya nitong mahalin ng tama? And bakit pinapaasa siya nitong may nararamdaman ito sa kaniya?

Even the sound of waves and the soft breeze of air could not soothe his anger and pain. He can only take this much. No, ayaw niya na tinatrato ng ganto.

Funny how people really is afraid of their own shadow. Tarantadong Astor, he was the one being jealous this morning and now he kissed a girl in front of him? What a fucking jerk.

Napahawak si Amory sa dibdib niya because his chest was hurting so much from the pent up anger and pain. All the worries and doubts he had for Sebastian this past few months were finally certain.

That man does not have feelings for him. It was his fantasy to be loved right by him that clouded his mind, Amory thought that waiting was the answer. He thought that if he waits, Sebastian will one day wake up and realize he loves him too.

But it was all a bullshit fantasy from him.

Amory walked until a huge boulder stopped him from walking any further, he angrily punched the massive rock in front of him. He heard how his knuckles cracked and how the sharp protruding parts of the rock scraped his skin so blood flowed  from his still tightly closed fist. But he doesn’t give a fuck about the injury.

The adrenaline from the rage he was currently feeling was numbing him from the physical pain he has.  Sobrang galit niya sa sarili para bang narealize niya kung paanong siya rin ang kumuha ng batong ipinukpok niya sa kaniyang ulo and what's making him more mad is the inability to leave despite being treated this way.

Sebastian obviously was not overall platonic with Melissa, akala ni Amory ay nag-ooverthink lang siya before but seeing them kiss now was a wake up call to him. There is someone else for Seb, maybe that was why Sebastian can't love him right.

He doesn’t know how long he was in that dark part of the beach. He ignored his phone vibrating from his pocket—maybe it was blasting from the calls from Bettina and Craig who must be worried about his whereabouts.

Ayaw niya ng kausap, he also doesn’t want the pity. He heaved a deep sigh for the last time and returned to his room.

And he was right kung sino ang nagpapaingay sa cellphone niya because when he opened it he saw several text messages and missed calls from Bettina and Craig but he ignored it and truned off the phone immediately.

When he opened the door, medyo nagulat siya na gising pa si Matt at nagpophone sa puwesto nito. Inangat nito ang tingin sa kaniya and looked at him worriedly.

“Hey…” bati nito sa mahinang boses, he must be cautious about what to say because of how Amory looks at that moment.

Matt must have an idea right now about what’s going on with him and Sebastian.

Then Matt realized that he was injured kaya tumayo ito para kumuha ng first-aid kit.

“Hey…” simpleng bati niya pabalik. Amory removed his upper shirt, tossed it on the side of the bed at padive na humiga roon. While Matt was looking at his every action, maya-maya ay nagsalita na ito.

“I didn’t see that Seb can swing that way, you must be so charming.” Amory removed his buried face on the pillow to look at Matt who was grinning at him beside his bed while holding a box of medicine kit.