sugar and honey - yoonmin littlespace 🍯 (incomplete)

where i've been

hey yall ... its been a while hasn't it.

i thought that it would be best to explain where i've been the last few years, and why i haven't updated the fic!

when i started writing this, i was 12 years old. i had few friends, no social life, and honestly needed something to sink my time into as a form of escapism. however, as i got older and busier, i had less time and energy to dedicate to planning and writing out this story. i wanted a quick break in 2021, as i was exhausted by all my responsibilities of the time. obviously, that quick break turned into an indefinite hiatus of over three years.

i'm not a completely different person from who i was when i was writing this, but alot has changed.

for one, i don't really listen to bts anymore 😭😭, i also don't just think about different au's filled with tons of kpop idols anymore. i guess that's a sort of loss of creativity that comes with growing various perceptions of the things around you. i still write agere fics, given that they're all on ao3, with only a handful of kpop currently (if you wanna find me there, my username is chuumissr). i don't think i've ever really fit the weekly update module, and that i had high expectations for my energy and capacity at the time.

it was hard to come back. i was scared, though i don't really understand why. it felt intimidating to come back again, after already being gone for a long time previously, so i decided to ignore it until i felt like writing again. i would log in occasionally, check in on my drafts, delete a sentence just to add a sentence. read all the comments asking me to update and think to myself that THIS was the week i'd update, before closing the app and putting down my laptop.

as time when on, i found other things to do. i was studying really hard to stay on honour roll, i had my first part-time job, i got a girlfriend, i went to concerts. i realize now that i wrote for this fic when i needed a sense of validation, whereas now i write for myself, and my own fulfillment. i'd like to think that another factor of how hard it was for me to come back as the years passed was the fact that i'm a bit more mature now, and have future plans.

i start my undergraduate degree in september, and turn eighteen in october. unfortunately, continuing this fic just isn't a part of my life plan currently. sorry for any disappointment that is may bring.

i genuinely appreciate the community this fanfiction gave me the privilege of having through some of the hardest years of my life. i loved updating this fic and reading all your supportive comments when i wasn't getting that positive feedback anywhere else in my life. seeing the fic get so many reads gave my younger self their 15 minutes of fame, which i'm also quite grateful for. i was a scared, lonely little kid, and you guys and this fic provided me a space where i could feel at ease.

thank you.

if you choose to follow my ao3, you can still get the occasional fic from me. my writing is definitely way better than my middle self, and i believe the fics are really wholesome. if not, than that's absolutely fine aswell.

i really just want to thank you all for growing up with me!

this is more than answering the unspoken question of "where have you been?" and "is the fic gonna update?". this is giving a thank you, to all of you, for having supported me.

thank you for reading, commenting, dming, and voting over the years. especially to those who have been bere since the very start.

well, as i used to say;

get up, drink some water because you need it.

and, i love you!