sugar and honey - yoonmin littlespace 🍯 (incomplete)

23 // yoongi 🌻

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what the actual fuck just happened.

yoongi yelled at himself as he replayed the strange and escalated encounter in his mind, as he boiled milk on jimin's 'old' stove. he would probably be moving back in after their fight anyhow. he rubbed his temples and crouched onto the cold tile. yoongi's shoulders slightly shook as his tears fell subconsciously.

why the FUCK did I start to yell and curse? I could tell he was stressed and I just made everything worse just like I always do. Why was I acting so temperamentally? Why so off and on?

why did I freak out when he said he ... liked me that way? It was his dream, it wasn't even real.

what the heck is wrong with me.

why the fuck do I feel need to hijack every single good fucking thing in my life? all I do is make everything worse.

The red-eyed man stood just in time to remove the milk before it boiled over the pot. jimin's pot. sniffling, he searched for cocoa powder and vanilla extract.

I wasn't being locked up, I was just nervous, so why did I lie to him and hurt him? I like him a lot, but I guess that ship won't really sail huh.

I even scared poor joonie out of his headspace, and he didn't even do anything except sleep. nobody did anything wrong except me really.

yoongi sadly stirred the hot chocolate and whisked some milk to create a froth, topping it off with some chocolate syrup and cinnamon.

yoongi sat down in this strange apartment feeling as alone and sad as he was back in high school, the air heavy with disappointment and a hollow feeling of regret.

the boy grabbed a notepad from his ex-caregivers refrigerator and began to write a note down.

"Dear Park Jimin,

I am so freaking sorry about lashing out at you for what would seem like no reason for you. I heard your dream. The one with the love story. The one where you said you were in love with me? I'm sorry I yelled at you. There was absolutely no need when all I needed to say was those words back. That I like-like you back.

But instead, I became a coward. I became a terrible human being. I said things that I didn't mean. I cursed at you and yelled, even though I knew I was hijacking myself to fail to be with you. There was absolutely no need for me to act like I was so tall and mighty. I'm sorry even though I don't really think words do much right now.

I understand that you won't want to care for me any longer. And that's fine because I deserve this. You can move back into your apartment, and I can do the same. You should be joonie's caregiver instead, you've known each other for ages. I deserve this, and so do you. You deserve someone who won't yell at you and call you names because they scared of saying I love you too.

I don't know who Seojun is, but I refuse to be like him so ...

Goodbye Park Jimin,

Hope you enjoy the hot chocolate, the recipe is on the back of this note.

P.S. Take joonie to the park one day, the one near the shopping center we went to. he would adore it. especially the sandbox and shovels and stuff. "

with shaky hands, yoongi put the note and the cocoa on a tray he had found in a random cabinet near the stove. he cautiously and slowly opened the door knowing how loud they were compared to the paper-thin wall job.