I Did This To Me (Justin Bieber)

Chapter Twelve: Justin

The situations I get myself into suck. How do I even do this to myself? Caitlin thinks I'm cheating on her with Jesika and I'm no closer to convincing her I'm not when she walks into Jesika's house and I'm on top of her laughing. I was just tickling her! Why did Caitlin walk in at that moment? 

On the bright side, Jes told me everything and let me in. She told me all about her Dad and how she felt and things like that. I was so proud of her and so glad she felt she could trust me. Not that it was a happy situation. I didn't mean bright side like that, just its nice she let me in.

August 18, 2011 ; Justin Bieber

I was straddling Jes's legs tickling her and she squirmed beneath me, making me fall onto her for the second time already. We ended up just laughing. When I sat up I saw Caitlin at the doorway, stopped laughing, and my eyes went wide. I felt Jes lift onto her elbows and see what I was staring at.

"What the hell is going on here?" Caitlin practically screamed with her hands on her hips. Jesika pushed me off her and moved to the opposite end of the couch. Shit, I'm in such trouble. 

"Caitlin, its not what it looks like." I said standing, grabbing my phone, and walking toward her.

"Really Justin?" She raised an eyebrow at me. Christian, Chaz, and Ryan walked in at that moment. They looked at Caitlin and I and then walked quickly into the living room. 

"I was tickling her and I fell when she squirmed, its not a big deal."

"This after the pictures!" She yelled and I winced. This looked so bad. So very bad. I pulled Caitlin's arm and brought her into the kitchen for some privacy. 

"Caitlin, the pictures are from her birthday. My mom and I took her and her family out for dinner."

"So you lied to me saying you were with Ryan." Caitlin said, it was not a question, because she knew the answer. I knew she would use that.

"I knew you'd freak out and I didn't want you to because it wasn't a big deal."

"A big deal! This is a very big deal, Justin! You're lying to me and cheating on me." 

"I'm not cheating on you. I swear. This is all just a misunderstanding." I was trying to keep my voice level. We didn't both need to be yelling at each other and it didn't seem like she was going to calm down at any point.

"Justin, I can see the pictures! Don't tell me this is just a misunderstanding."

"Caitlin, the pictures are all innocent. Jesika got upset at something her mom told my mom and she ran out. I went out to make sure she didn't get hurt. She was crying so I took her hands so she could speak. Thats all. I opened the door to let her back inside because she was still upset. The last one, you can clearly see both our Moms and Ty in the background. Nothing was happening. Can't you see that?" I asked throwing my hands in the air.

"Why did you lie to me about where you were?"

"I was trying to avoid this whole stupid argument. There's nothing going on between Jesika and I! I like you Caitlin. Thats why I'm with you. Thats why I like when you guys come up to visit."

"Sometimes I know that, and then times like this, I'm not so sure."

"Caitlin, stop." I said walking closer to her. I took her hands in mine. "Nothing happened."

"The sofa?"

"I was just tickling her." I decided to leave out the song. I didn't think Jesika would mention it and I sure didn't want to. "She was in a bad mood this morning and I was trying to cheer her up." I pulled her into a hug. "Its all innocent. Nothing is going on between us."

"Justin, do you like her?" She pulled back and I could see the hurt in her eyes.

"No. Not like that."

"But you like her."

"Caitlin." I sighed. The only way I was going to get her off my back was if I lied and said I didn't care about her. "I don't care about her. She's just my neighbor. Her mom is my moms best friend, I have to be nice to her. Please, don't worry." I lied and I felt so terrible. It felt like my chest was going to break, my heart was going to burst out and smash into thousands of tiny pieces. Caitlin's eyes lit up.

"Oh Justy." She whined and wrapped her arms around my neck. I hugged her back.

"So we're good?" I asked and she nodded her head. "Good." I smiled and we walked back out to the living room. Jesika was glaring at me and then she ran up to her room. Shit. She heard me. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. When I opened them Caitlin was smiling. "Are you seriously happy about this?" I asked pulling my hand out of hers. I ran up to Jesika's room and knocked on the door. "Jes, please, let me explain."

"Just go away Justin. Seriously, just go."

"Let me in Jesika." I knocked again. 

"Go talk to your girlfriend, the one you care about." She hissed through the door.

"Jes." I knocked again and she didn't say anything. I walked back down the stairs and slumped onto the sofa. "She's locked herself in her room." I sighed.

"I'll go talk to her." Christian said and walked up the stairs. He was up there for a total of two minutes and then he was back down here.

"Well, that worked." Chaz said. 

"She said, and I quote 'No way am I talking to Caitlin's brother about anything to do with Justin and her.' So I'm out." Christian sighed, but he still looked amused. 

"Think she'd talk to me?" Caitlin asked and I glared at her. "Just making sure." 

"I could try." Chaz stood up. We stared at him and he rolled his eyes. Ryan was already on his way up the stairs. 

"She wouldn't even mutter a sound to me." Ryan said coming back down the stairs.

"It can't hurt. Everyone else has tried." Chaz said and headed for the stairs. 

Please Jes, I'm sorry. I didn't mean any of it. I wish I could just talk to her, explain to her that Caitlin wouldn't believe me, that I had no choice and I had to say that. She should know I care about her. Honestly I wish she knew that.

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