I Did This To Me (Justin Bieber)

Chapter Fifteen: Jesika

Dear Journal,

I don't want to forgive him. I really don't. I really really, don't want to forgive him. He came over to try to apologize and I told him to leave. I didn't leave my room yesterday because I didn't want to see anyone. Ty brought me breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Each time asking if I wanted to talk about it. Each time wanting to know what happened. What happened? What happened was I trusted the least dependable person ever. 

And it came back and bit me in the butt.

August 20, 2011 ; Jesika Williams

I woke up knowing today would be awful. I had to spend all day with people I didn't like. I had to be with Justin and Caitlin all day. I could possibly ignore them and hang out with Chaz and Christian. "Jesika, I'm going with Pattie to get a van for all of us, get dressed and go to Justin's. They said to wear a bathing suit under your clothes." My mom hollered to me.

"Okay." I pretended to care. I put on my bikini, it was a greenish color and it had a bow on one side of the bottom and frill on the top. It was a halter top. I grabbed a pair of shorts and a tank top to put over it. The shorts were white with really cool shells and beads decorating the top and the sides and one of the legs. The tank top was yellow and it had black writing that said "Endless Nights", and the straps crossed at the back. I could at least pretend to fit in at the park. I threw some bangles on each of my wrists and grabbed my wallet and went downstairs. I grabbed my flip-flops and decided I couldn't stall any longer. I walked over to my door and then walked to Justin's house. I knocked on his door and waited with my arms crossed over my chest. After about a minute I knocked again, a little harder.

The door swung open and Justin was standing there in black shorts and a tank top that said "The Endless Summer", you'd think we'd planned that or something. "Jesika?" He asked.

"Uh yeah. You know, the neighbor you don't care about." I saw regret flash in his eyes. "My mom told me to come over here because she left with your mom and apparently breakfast is over here." I rolled my eyes.

"Can we talk?" Justin asked me.

"We have nothing to talk about."

"I think we do."

"Well that sucks."

"Jesika." Justin looked at me.

"Justin!" I heard from behind me.

"Oh look, theres your girlfriend." I tried walking into the house but he put his arm up to block me.

"Hey Caitlin. Hey Christian." Justin said and Christian nodded. "Can Jesika and I have a minute?" Caitlin and Christian nodded and walked inside. Justin shut the door.

"She isn't going to like us talking." 

"I don't care. You're my friend, whether she likes it or not. I like hanging out."

"That makes one of us." I rolled my eyes.

"Jesika. Come on. I made a mistake. I never should have said I didn't care about you. I really do care about you. And I am so, so sorry." He said and looked at me. I sighed and looked away from him. "Jes." He took one of my hands. "Please."

"Justin." I heard from the door. I tried pulling away from Justin but he kept my hand in his and turned to look at Caitlin. "Whats going on?" She asked.

"Nothing Caitlin, we're just talking." Justin said. Caitlin looked down at our hands and then back up to Justin.

"Oh… Okay." She answered and I knew she didn't believe him. She turned and went back into the house.