I Did This To Me (Justin Bieber)

Chapter Nine: Jesika

Dear Journal,

Why does he find it necessary to ruin my life on multiple occasions? The one thing I'm grateful for is that he hasn't brought up that stupid kiss. I don't have any words for that. He has a girlfriend. Sort of. I'm still not sure of that whole situation. But now, not only did he invite me to that amusement park, he is also taking me to dinner. Well me and my family for my birthday. Great.

I'm not exactly excited for this considering the last time we went out for my birthday someone died.

August 17, 2011 ; Jesika Williams

I just stood in my bedroom looking at Justin. He was smiling like crazy at me. "The longer it takes you to move, the more time we spend together." Justin said and I snapped out of it. I walked to my door and let Justin walk out before me. We walked down the stairs to our Moms and Tyson.

"Well aren't you a pretty young lady." Pattie said smiling. I plastered a smile on my face. "So its a surprise where we're taking you." Pattie said. "We'll take my car, so lets go." All five of us walked outside to Pattie's car. I noticed everyone else was in a type of dressy clothes. I was in grey jeans with small rips, a black shirt with a flower down one side, sneakers, and my netted fingerless gloves since I was in a t-shirt. I was self-conscious of myself, not that I showed it much, but I did cross my arm over my waist and grab my elbow.

"Jesika, you look fine." Justin came up and whispered in my ear. I didn't even respond. 

We got into the car. Pattie was driving, my mom in the passenger seat, Ty behind Mom, Justin in the middle, and I was behind Pattie. It was just too familiar and I couldn't stop myself from thinking about that night four years ago. Justin kept looking over at me, so I concentrated really hard on looking out the window.

When Pattie finally pulled up to a restaurant, I was never more happy to get out of a car. I practically jumped out the door, leaving Justin looking at me weird. We all walked into the restaurant and got our seat. I was in between Ty and Justin. Pattie wanted us to say Grace which meant we had to hold hands around the table. I took Ty's hand and then looked up at Justin's outstretched hand. He smirked at me. I lightly put my hand in his and he squeezed it. Pattie said Grace and we all let go, except Justin. He just pulled our hands under the table and held tighter when I tried taking my hand away. "So Jesika, about Saturday." Justin started. I shook my head at him.

"What about Saturday?" My mom asked looking at me.

"Nothing." I said pulling my hand out of Justin's.

"Ms. Williams, me and my friends, Ryan Butler, Chaz Somers, and Christian and Caitlin Beadles are going to an amusement park. I invited Jesika. She was supposed to ask." Justin opened his big mouth.

"I didn't want to intrude." I smiled.

"You wouldn't be, I invited you." Justin smiled back.

"Well, I think its a good idea." My mom said. "She will go with you. Right Jes." My mom said.

"Looking forward to it." I said sarcastically. I saw Justin smiling and rolled my eyes. Now he shuts his mouth, why did he have to open it?

Our food came and I zoned out for a while. When I zoned back in, my mom and Pattie were the only ones talking. "So what have you guys done for Jesika's birthday in the past?" Pattie asked.

"Well, Jes didn't want to do anything the last few years. Her twelfth birthday, we went out to dinner. Her father took us." Mom explained.

"So you're divorced?" Pattie asked.

"Widowed." My mom said and I stared at her. I felt Justin looking at me.

"Oh, I'm so sorry. How did he pass? If you don't mind." Pattie said.