Save Me From Myself

Chapter 49-The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Nina's POV

A new day...a rainy, cold day...I stayed all wrapped up in the duvet while Robin took my cardigan and blasted the sound system.

"Mum why don't you come out with me. The fresh air will do you good. You've been locked up in the house for days, ever since the trial. It will all be good. You will get custody mum, no matter what.", she said curling up next to me under the duvet. I hugged her tightly, inhaling her perfume as I wiped a tear from my cheek.

I couldn't tell her that the whole scandal that started ever since I left Australia, reduced the chances of me getting full custody. And neither did the photos that the paparazzi took of me and Aidan and neither did the relationship between me and Danny. My lawyer told me that Danny didn't seem a good influence for Robin and above all, the article that was released in the press, making me look like I was the biggest tramp.

"No hun, you go...have fun...", I said wearily.
"I love you...", she said kissing my forehead.
"I love you too.", I said closing my eyes.

A few minutes after she left I heard a quick knock in the door. She must've surely forgot something...
I dragged myself out of the duvet and went to the door. It wasn't her. It was Danny. He glued himself to the door, pleading to open the door.

"Come on baby, open the door please..."

I fell to my knees, sobbing quietly as he kept on knocking and pleading to talk to him. I just couldn't bare talking to him now....I couldn't...everything that happened between us was enough for me. I couldn't even look him in the eyes.

As I went to the living room, leaving him at the door, I sat on the couch and closed my eyes, listening patiently until at one point the knocking stopped. I laid with my head on the pillow, looking blankly at the TV, as tears rolled down my eyes. I knew being with him meant that my life would go public, I was willing to take that risk, I was willing to expose my daughter to be happy, but now, now I felt empty on the inside.

I have no idea how much time I spent on the sofa, staring at the TV, but something that caught my eye appeared on the news. It was Danny and ROBIN!!! They were busking in the street. The headline: DANNY O'DONOGHUE, THE MAN WHO CAN'T BE MOVED.

"Oh god! What is Robin doing there?", I screamed as I got up from the sofa, grabbing my phone from the coffee table. I tried calling her, but she didn't answer the phone.

"Jesus Robin, you're going to be so grounded!", I said screaming around the house as I was pulling on a pair of jeans. I changed my shirt and pulled my hair furiously into a bun. Then I grabbed my jacket and stormed out of the apartment.

"You're in so much trouble Robin! Oh God, Jesus!", I said talking to myself while I put the keys in the ignition.

I think I bended a lot of traffic rules, but I managed to get to where my daughter was. A large crowd surrounded them and she seemed to have a lot of fun. Her fingers and face were red from the cold, but she kept on singing happily. They were both singing "Nothing", a song I knew all too well from his album.

I made my way through the crowd and watched them singing. Danny noticed me and he started smiling, as he was singing the lyrics "I wanted words but all I got was nothing...she said nothing..."

He nudged Robin, and pointed in my direction.

"Mum!", shouted Robin as she came close to me and hugged me.
"You're in deep trouble...now let's go home...", I said taking her cold hand.
"No mum, I don't know why you and Dan got into a fight but I can't stand to see you suffer a second more!"
"Come on we can talk about this at home Robin..."
"You have to talk to him! You always said to me that you will be with the man who will love you enough to do crazy stuff like this! If this isn't crazy enough I dunno what else is! Mum he loves you! He loves you enough to fly over from Australia and talk to you! Just give him a chance!", she said running to Danny and taking him by the hand.

Yes, she was going to be in so much trouble.

Danny took his guitar and stopped to sign autographs and take pictures. Robin followed me to the car.

"Mum you gotta listen to him!"
"Robin please, get inside and let's get home..."
"Nope...you gotta listen to what he has to say. He really loves you..."
"I don't want to listen to anything...please Robin, get in the car."
"Mum, you have been miserable these last two weeks. And don't try to hide. You miss him and you feel the same for him. Don't even think that I didn't see you. You have been crying all the time, don't try to deny it!"
"Nina...", said Danny approaching us.
"Gotta go mum, gotta meet Saundra and Chantall. See you at home byee!!! They just texted me!"
"But Robin..."
"Byeeeeeee!"

I turned back to Danny, looking at him, my heart and soul filled with rage, pain and love...yes I loved him and it consumed me. He took me by the hand, kissing it.

"Wanna go some place quiet please?", he asked me not letting go of my hand.

I nodded and got inside of the car and he followed. We drove for about an hour in silence and I stopped in front of a small coffee shop in the suburbs of London. We both ordered and I waited for him to start.

"Baby...look...we have to talk...when did we become complete strangers?"
"Maybe about the time when you told me you didn't believe me.", I said sharply.
"Baby...I'm so sorry...I wasn't thinking...I was just thinking about my loss, I wasn't thinking that it would be so hard on you...I put myself before you and I was an idiot..."
"You really wanna know how I felt, how I feel? Every time I saw something about you, every time I read an article, I would read it a million times even if it killed me on the inside, slowly. I am broken Danny, hurt! I lost a pregnancy! I was forced to lose it, and you, you didn't understand that aspect!", I said slowly, big tears falling down my eyes."
"I'm sorry baby...I realised the second you left and walked into that hotel how much it hurt you. I wasn't thinking..."
"Do you ever think? Did you ever put yourself in my shoes? Did you ever think that if something happened to me, my daughter would be destroyed? I know she isn't your blood, but she is my daughter! My own flesh and blood! And now I'm gonna lose her and I will only see her once a weekend!"

I started sobbing, my shoulders shaking because I was trying my best to hide it and not draw attention on us. He came closer to me and hugged me tightly, gently wiping my tears.

"I'm sorry baby, I would never do anything that would hurt Robin, or you for that matter. I adore you baby, you are my world. I'm so sorry for making you suffer."
"And I never cheated on you! I know I'm not making any sense right now..."
"I know...I was such a bastard. Could you ever forgive me? I swear I will do anything in my power for you to have full custody...everything...I want you and Robin, and I want us to start over...but I want to know if you still want that."
"Of course I want that! Haven't you figured that one out by now? I want you, with all your imperfections, I want you Danny forever. I'm not saying this just to I dunno, fill the silence in between us! I love you."
"I swear to God that I will never hurt you again..."

He kissed me over and over again and I felt that my world wasn't crumbling at my feet anymore. He took me by the hand and I drove back home where a herd of photographers was waiting for us.

"Are you guys back together again?"
"Who was the mysterious man?"
"Did the whole stunt you pulled today work?"
"Danny here, hold on for a photo!"

We went inside the apartment building and straight to his apartment.

"I'm sorry for that...", he said slowly.
"Don't be...it's not your fault..."
"Now I feel like I owe you an explanation regarding my life...drink?", he asked pulling out a bottle of whiskey from a counter.
"Yes...what explanation?"
"I know you talked to Liv...but she doesn't know the whole story..."
"How do you know that?"
"She told me...now....I have to tell you my life story...cheers.", he said clinging the glass with me and then drinking the content of his glass from one gulp.
"Okay..."
"Now...I have to start by saying that it's gonna be a long, long and sad story....and it will explain why I'm not that trusting anymore, regarding basically anyone."
"What do you mean by that?"
"Just listen. A long time ago I fell in love with Mel. She was my first love. I loved her so much and I wanted to grow old with her. But I also loved music. I wanted to make a name out of myself. Be someone, not just another guy who does music, like the other hundreds that are trying. I moved to LA with Mark and we got it from there...it was hard...we were living in such bad conditions that could scare the shit out of anyone seeing us. But we clenched our fists and moved on...we strived to become who we were now. Mel was my high school sweetheart, but things became more serious one night at a party. We confessed we had feelings for each other and that's how it all started..."