Unleashed

Why I stayed

Told from the future-

Many people wonder what made me stay
Why did I drink his poison
Over and over
With each lie I grew closer
I lived with this monster until each false word chipped away
a little bit more of me
These lies shaped me
It made me loose my mind and changed my brain to what only he wanted
I was his toy
I would do what he wanted even if it meant destroying my self worth
I had been walking down that dark road for so long
The exit signs were obvious
Why cant I seem to leave him
After all he was tearing me apart
But I realized something that others couldent quite see
He was broken too
He didn't know how to love
Or care, because that was never given to him
That's what I wanted to produce
I wanted to be his coution
When he fell from home and his prices shatterd
I wanted the sharp glass to dive into my skin
But he didn't come crashing to me like I had hoped
Instead he kept his distance giving me the minimum
So instead of waiting for his broken pieces to slice up my skin
I did it myself
I tore my self apart and lived like a broken doll
My glass was broken
Yet somehow I seemed to physically stay intact
I started to look to the broken for help
Using bias advice
I looked to him to comfort me
Although he just seemed to watch me die
There was nothing he could do but put on an act

Even so, I still held on
The edge of the cliff was my knew home
I seemed to just barley breath
I inhaled his inconsistency
And I became immune to toxins
Believing that what I was getting was what I deserved
I took a downward spiral and worries filled every space that used to be comfort
I was not comfortable in my own skin
Every bit of me seemed to be owned by him
Gone was the innocent girl that everyone knew
I got a knew persona that only made my anxiety sky rocket
Living in fear was not the way I had planned to live but for some reason it was all I knew.

-True story as of now...-