Noona

Epilogue

Epilogue

It's been what, 7 years? It's been 7 years since the first time I met you. I remember seeing you waiting at the hallway outside the practice room that day, you were sweating like there's no tomorrow because you were so nervous of not getting passed from the audition. Looking back at that time you were still a innocent boy who wants to show his talents in world, and now you've done so far. You've reached the highest peak. You've reached your dream. You fulfill your passion. You're a star now Jeon Jungkook.

I remember the first time I watched you perform, my jaw literally dropped because despite of your young age you were so talented. You know how to sing, rap and dance. That's why I have no dout when PDnim choses you to be part of Bangtan and debut that early.

Looking back those days I never thought that one day we will be this close. You were a shy boy and I'm the kind if person who didn't care for the people around me unless you talk to me first.

My heart skipped a beat the moment you called me Noona. The feeling is new since I grew up in a family whose I'm the youngest and no one calls me Noona. I thought I will just be your Noona and you will be my Dongseang but it was'nt. I never thought that that day would come, that I will realize that I didn't see you as my dongsaeng anymore. I see you as man, a grown up man which any girl wish for. I don't want you to call me noona anymore, I want to call you Oppa.

I know you know that I don't like relationships that the girl was older than the boy, I know that you already found out my reasons why but I don't know what's happening with me. You're making me crazy.

Sorry for all the things I've done to you. Sorry. I know you can't forgive but please give it try.

Sorry Jungkook I'm really sorry.
Sorry for causing you a lot of troubles.
Sorry for messing your life.
Sorry for breaking your relationship with Eun-ah.

Sorry, because Noona fell in love with you. Sorry saeng, Noona can't help it. You're irresistable.

As much as I'm sorry, I'm also thankful that I met you. You did my life colorful. You make me realize how important love and life is. Thank you.

Now Noona is leaving not because she is a coward for not facing all the problems she did but because she want to start all over again. She want to realize all her mistakes.

I don't want to do this but this is the right thing to do.

Bye Jeon Jungkook. Always remember that Noona Loves you.

Choi Yoora Loves you.

Pagkatapos kong itype yung mga gusto kong sabihin para sa kanya ay agad kong pinindot yung post button. Alam kong ako yung mali kaya gagawin ko to kahit labag sa kalooban ko. Marami ng nasaktan at nasira kaya ayoko ng madagdagan pa.

This will be the last post on my instagram account. My message for him and the first ever picture of us together.

Pagkapost pa lang ay marami ng nagcomment. Gusto kong basahin, gusto kong malaman yung saloobin, yung iniisip nila pero natatakot ako. Natatakot akong masaktan muli sa mga sinasabi nila.

I didn't force myself. After this everything will be fine. Everything will be in the right place again. I look for the logout button and click it. Tears were now running out from my eyes.

"Yoora are you really sure about this?" agad akong napa-angat ng tingin dahil sa sinabing iyon ni Manager Unnie. Nakikita ko sa mga mata nya ang lungkot. Alam kong ayaw nya rin tong gagawin ko.

Ang daming nangyari sa BTS lalo na sa company namin ng umain ako na kami ni Jungkook. Halos lahat ng endorsement nila ay binawi at ang laki ng binagsak ng stocks ng BigHit. At alam kong ako ang may kasalanan nun, hiniling ko kay PD-nim na iterminate ang kontrata ko. Sabi nya kung mapapasa ko iyong pagsubok nya ay kahit ano pwede kong hilingin kaya nung kinausap ko sya ay hiniling kong iterminate nya ang kontrata ko pero hindi sya pumayag kaya ako na ang gumawa ng paraan. Kailngan ko ng umalis, kailangan ko ng mawala sa buhay ng BTS lalo na ni Jungkook para matupad ang mga pangarap nya.