Black and White ✘ Black Butler

Chapter 36

"Now, are you absolutely positive that you want to go?" Sebastian asks. He was currently sitting on my bed, looking at me through the mirror while I finished getting ready for the night ahead of me.

"I'm positive. Besides, how else am I suppose to keep Alois on check? There is no way I'm going to let my friends go into that house all by themselves. And, I would have to be dead before I let Aunt Rose go there on her own accord," I say as I finish putting on my black leather jacket, smoothing out the sleeves soon after. Why couldn't this day just never exist? Seriously, why couldn't we just ignore this day and move on. The last thing I need is to enter the Spider's web (Clever name, huh).

"Please don't say that. If you keep thinking you'll die at any minute, then it may actually come true."

"You know what. Now, I think that may just be the only option left for me. And, as a matter of fact, I wouldn't mind that." I use my hands to brush through my hair, knit-picking each stray hair I found.

He sighs before walking up behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist. "Don't you dare think that way, Catherine. There's too much at stake for you just to give up now."

I stop midway through my hair once I felt his touch tingle through my skin, sending a small wave of spark through my body.

"Plus, I don't know what I would do if you ever got hurt."

I scoff. Then, I pull myself out of his grasp before walking out of my bedroom and into the nearest bathroom I could find. Once closing the door behind me, I grip my hands onto the white marble countertop and look into the mirror. My stress level has been skyrocketing ever since Christmas Eve. With the surprising news from Edward and Claude's threat, my anxiety has been going all over the place. Everything that is being put on my plate is just too much for me to handle. How can I handle everything all at once; how could anyone for that matter?

Now, as silly as it seems, I wish that I could've had the typical teenage life that I've always seen on television. At least there, it isn't a life or death situation. My life revolves around angels and demons and everything belonging in the afterlife. Sadly as I long for that life, it was never going to happen long before I was born. My destiny was already decided for me.

At least, the only normal thing going on in my life (as painful as it is) is my feelings. I mean, every teenager goes through this... at least, the ones I see on television. But, why did Edward have to blurt that out now?!?! It would've been better if he said it earlier or not at all!! Now, I can even go a second without thinking about this conflict in my head. But, why should there be a conflict anyways?! I love Sebastian, and I'm in a relationship with this man. Why do Edward's words, not to mention feelings, affect me so much?!

But, I can't let my narrow teenage mind affect me now; not at this moment. I'm practically fighting a battle against two demons. And, I shouldn't even be bringing up the band of angels that practically want to burn me at the stake. Why did my parents have to bring me into this world if they knew I would be stuck in this situation?

I jump when I suddenly hear a ding go off on my phone. I pull the device from my pockets, turn the screen on, and look at the message Bell had sent.

Bell: Are you on your way?

I sigh before beginning to touch the screen, typing out the message.

Me: Just finished getting ready... I should be out soon.

Bell: Great! Just left with Edward. We should get to Alois's in a few minutes.