Miserable at Best

Chapter 44: Comeback

Quick Note:
My bad I couldn't update this quick. :( But oh well.. Here ya go! Enjoy! :)

I run as fast as I could not really knowing where I should go to find Jeff. I start feeling warmth in the corner of my eyes as my vision slightly blurred out to the tears that slowly fall down my cheeks. My pants get heavier and louder as I pass the buildings and houses and avoid bumping to the strangers. I came to a halt when the stoplight suddenly turned green and the vehicles started moving from being piled on the street. I breathe heavily as my head start to feel dizzy and my eyes ache from crying. Small fog comes out of my lips as I breathe out the air from my lungs. Just then I started feeling a bit colder and noticed that the breeze blows harder than before.

"It must be the start of winter."  I mumbled to myself as I rub my arms to ease the cold.

My mind is clouded as I gaze on the street before me, eagerly waiting for the cars to stop moving and let the pedestrians cross.  Just as I look down on the ground, the green light turned off switching with the red to turn on, making the vehicles stop and letting the people cross the road.  As soon as the people around me take steps forward, I drag my feet quickly to the ground as I come to another run pass them.  My breathing keeps getting heavier as I gasped for air to come inside my lungs.  My eyes blurred a bit due to its watering caused by the cold and my own tears, but I just wipe them with my sleeves as I continue to run while wondering where the authorities had taken Jeff.

I turn to every corners and run past every shops as I wander around the city like a lost child.  I actually don't have the least idea on where on earth they took him, but my senses seem telling me not to stop searching as if he is possibly only around the corner.  After about an hour or two of restless running, my legs finally gave out as well as my lungs.  I stop literally gasping for air with my legs as weak as jellies as my head spinning around in a very blurry and dizzy state.  I fell on my knees as my heart starts to loose hope in finding Jeff.  I start to cry softly and audibly while I keep my form crouched on the ground of the empty street.  I took a sharp breath in as I let my warm tears slide down my cold cheeks.  Slowly, I open my teary eyes with my face looking up to the cloudy night sky.

"Why do I have to suffer like this?"  I mumbled asking the heaven about my demise.  "Why do you have to punish me like this?! Why?!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as I start to cry harder and shake my head violently. "Please! If you don't want me to live anymore just please take me! Take me now if you want! I can't bare this anymore! I cannot take it anymore!" I shouted before letting out a loud, agonizing cry. "Please God... If I wouldn't see Jeff anymore please... Then just please take me away... Take my life away... I can't live without him so please just take me away..." I cried with my voice fading slowly as I softly let the words slip out my tongue.

I stayed my head up for a while as if waiting for an answer to slide into my ears.  I then slowly tilted it down, looking at the dark, empty street in front of me before I finally drop my head down on my hands.  My cries are soft and breathy but it still echoes through the whole place, making the vast silence around me be a little fading from its usual deafening state.  I was very tired and lost in crying out my agony that I didn't even notice an arrival from behind me.  A very faint footsteps that sounds on the pavement slowly became audible as it approached me calmly before stopping into a halt.  My curiosity then crept up to my nerves again, yet I didn't bother to turn and see who or what it is, for the thought of me not being able to see Jeff anymore makes me just want to die and leave this cruel world rather than continue living without him.  Because no matter what shits he brings me or no matter how many times he fuck my whole life up, I would still admit that my whole world now only revolves around Jeff, especially when my father died and left me as well...  Just like my mom.

I was very out and careless on my surroundings anymore when the voice from the stranger behind me snapped me out of my daze.

"Amanda?..."  Called the very familiar voice.

My head quickly shot up from being buried on my hands when the sound rang into my ears.  My eyes are widely opened in suprise and my jaw is dropped in full shock.  My heart thumps even wilder against my chest as chills ran down my spine and shivers, together with the cold breeze, give me goosebumps all over my skin.

No way...  It can't be...  But he's...

"Amanda.  It's me!  Haven't you remembered?"  The voice called out again. 

At this point my whole form is completely frozen on my place that I couldn't even feel my own breathing anymore.  My hands are shaking madly while my lips shiver and my teeth tatter.  I could feel my blood being drained out of my exhausted face, and even draining out my whole body.  Then I tensed up even more when I heard the faint footsteps along the pavement once again and felt the presence moved closer until they are inches from my back.  The stranger then crouched down at me and carefully placed their hand on my shaking, tensed up shoulder.  A small, breathy and fearful gasp escape my lips as soon as I felt the clothed hand on my cold shoulder.  Then ever so slowly, I turn my head to my side until my gaze met up with the eyes that I am expecting to see.

"Dylan..."

Quick Note:
This one's a shorty, I know. :(
But I did it for the cliffhanger lol
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